Still with you

Chapter 13 : Ending Scene

Jungkook's story : Still with you.

Chapitre 13: Ending scene.

Change comes very quickly. Our older brothers always know how to solve the problems. Hoseok spoke to them. Two nights later, while eating, as often, Nam Joon starts to talk about my trouble. Speaking on behalf of all, he apologizes for treating me like a baby and vows to change his attitude. Everyone agrees. As he points out, I am almost 18 years old, it is time for them to realize it. Yoongi adds that no one tried to hurt me. Jin says that I must be reassured about my performances, he who struggles more than everyone else. Everyone goes with their comforting verse. I feel better. I just thank them all, unable to say more. I smile to reassure them. Only Jimin remains silent. He looks at me when he thinks I don't see him. I don't understand why. He nods to our brothers's words, but adds nothing. He seems a little concerned. Why ?

In any case I am impressed by Tae who was more mature than ever when he spoke to me that night. Even tonight, he's not trying to make us laugh or make a joke. I see that he was touched by my "confession ». I say with a smile that I still want to continue to have fun, but not always at my expense.

My daily life is getting lighter. I can focus better on rehearsals because I feel more respected. So we continue on our exhausting schedule. We train and record the third part of our trilogy, The most beautiful moment in life : Young Forever. My camera is always with me and I shoot my friends as often as possible.

One night, after showering, I finally lay on my bed. It's already two o'clock in the morning. We have to get up in a few hours. It's going to be torture again. Nam Joon and Jin will have to shake me again. But it is when our manager will start to grumble that I will be late that I will get up, puffy by the lack of sleep. Anyway, I take my camera to empty my new videos in my laptop. I don't have time to work on montages but I watch my videos to relax while Nam Joon washes. He sings in the shower, making me smile, as always. He never stops.

Suddenly, Jimin appears on my screen. He's the one holding my camera in front of him. I see myself joking with Tae in the background. He took my camera without asking me. He stares at the lens for a few seconds, as if looking for his words. His features are drawn by fatigue... and sadness ? Yes, his eyes are a little sad. Finally, he opens his mouth and whispers "Sorry". He stops, as if exhausted. Then he adds, "I'm sorry I hurt you." I can barely hear his voice. He speaks low and I can hear Jin laughing in the background. The screen turns black. That's all.

It only lasts a few seconds, but it hurts my chest, so hard. Jimin has hardly spoken to me since this night. He tries to avoid my gaze. He is much quieter than usual. I blamed it on fatigue, and on the fact that maybe he was a little bit angry. I didn't dare talk to him either. Seeing him here, sad, on my screen touches me. I blame myself for causing him concern. But it had to come out, so he has to deal with it, and so do I.

I'm late the next morning, but so is he, as always. We quickly meet in the kitchen. I smile at him to thank him. His face lights up with relief. He's so handsome. My heart is tightening. Jimin causes me emotions that I don't really understand. He's my friend. I love him. I don't want him to be angry. I need him. In the following days, we talk more and more, but there is still this embarrassment between us. I don't know why.

I don't really have time to think about it because we're flying to Hong Kong, the last day of our world tour. Stage, once again, euphoria, fans shouting our names, sweat, pretty girls, lights, all this move me so much. I don't feel tired, I'm fit, my tiger is ready to roar. I'm nervous as always but when the show begins, I feel like I am flying. That's why I work so hard, for those amazing moments that make me feel really alive.