Still with you

Chapter 6 : You are my.

Jungkook's story : Still with you.

Chapter 6: You are my.

We are finally able to record our first studio album, Dark and Wild. A new experience for us. I especially love the track Danger, so powerful. I feel like this year will be very important for us in many ways.

First, we're going to spend two weeks in the United States this summer, to shoot a reality show "American Hustler Life". Then, in October, we begin our first tour : The Red Bullet.

Before that, we participate in "After school club", a Korean program for teenagers, hosted by Daniel Kang. It's fun to take part of that show. We can feel our growing popularity. We also see that we have more and more followers who send us multiple messages of encouragement. Sometimes it seems so unreal ! We do little fun tests, we let go a little. That day, I sing some of Justin Bieber's "If I was your boyfriend." My brothers, the audience and the presenters applaud me and I smile. Yeah, I did it. I look at Jimin as I sit down to see if he is proud of me. He stares at me for a moment and I look at him back back. I'm tired of putting my head down in front of him. I chose this song for him. He seems surprised, then smiles big to congratulate me. He says I'm a passionate person and I train a lot. The others confirm. I'm proud of myself. But you all guys haven't seen anything yet ! Trust me.

Then Jimin dances in front of us. I clench my teeth. Seeing Jimin dance always causes me a lot of excitement. Hoseok joins him for a surprise sequence. Then they explain that they hid to prepare it. I sigh with annoyance. Another game. We must kiss an inflatable doll with the effigy of Elsa, the Snow Queen. It's completely ridiculous. I don't have fun anymore, but keep smiling. I'm happy when I see Jimin refusing to kiss it, I refuse too, as well as Tae looking at me with a weird look. For the three of us, it was a no. Why ? It's so confusing in my head, but I want it to change.

That night, we all play a video game tournament at the dorm. Tae is very good and wins several times. It annoys me. I feel the frustration rising in me. I'm getting more and more angry. I tell him to stop bragging and that he is not that good. Electricity is in the air. We face each other in the game. Our brothers encourage us equally, as usual. I want to win. I want to show him that I am the best. I don't know why he annoys me so much but I want him to shut his mouth, to stop laughing. I focus to knock him down at the last second. I throw my controller away and I roar like a tiger. Our brothers applaud us. I stare at Tae, defying him. He stays still. I lean over him and wisper between my teeth :

-I slaughtered you ! You're dead !

Then I stand up, so proud of me. Jimin looks at me interrogatively, then looks at Tae. He hasn't move. Hoseok finally shakes him and claps his hands :

-Wow ! You guys are the best !! It was amazing ! Come on, time to bed !!

Jin and Yoongi store the console while we brush our teeth. I'm teasing everyone, still on my victory cloud. Finally, we go to bed. The adrenaline's going down, I'm tired now. Nam Joon, Hoseok, and Yoongi read a little. Jimin got into bed without a look for me. Jin takes out the cereal and bowls for tomorrow breakfast, goes in the bathroom and comes to bed too. Tae is missing, staying in the bathroom. When Jin comes to bed, we turn off the lights. I ask softly what Tae's doing. Jin whispers to me that he needs to be alone. I turn to sleep, but in vain. It was a long day but my mind always comes back to Tae.

-I slaughtered you. You're dead.

I told Tae that. I had a tough tone. I can't believe it. What's wrong with me ? He's my friend. It was just a game. Shame overwhelms me. I don't understand why I'm such a jerk. Then I imagine him and my heart tightens. I know him now. I know that right now he is in pain. And that it's because of me.