Still with you

Chapter 37 : To you.

Jungkook's story: Still with you.

Chapter 37: To you.

When I join Jimin, our room is in the dark. I didn't realize how much time I had spent with my hyungs. It's late now. I go to the bathroom and to bed. I lie gently against my lover's back and embrace him tenderly. I don't want to wake him up, I just want to feel him warm and soft skin against me. My mind is stormy. Jimin sighs in his sleep and turns to me. I gently kiss his beautiful forehead and look for sleep.

Big love, so hard to find. That we have to protect. For which you have to be willing to make some sacrifices.

I think of all those years, when Jimin stood by my side, always attentive, silenting his feelings for me. For me.

-I love you my Angel, I whisper in his ear.

-Me too... I love you... Jungkook, he mumbles in his sleep.

I squeeze him a little harder and he responds to my embrace.

-Are you...okay Jungkook ?

-Sorry, I didn't want to wake you up.

-It's nothing. Give me a kiss.

I am super ready for it.

-I talked with Jin, then with Nam Joon...

-Oh... Do you want to talk to me too ?

-Yes, I, I think I have to, right ?

-Yes, you're right.

-First at all, I understand you. I love to be in you so much, I feel like we're one, so I think that's what you want too.

-Yes. But ?

Fortunately we're in the dark because it's really hard for me. But I want to be an adult, so I'm not going to walk away. I grow up at high speed with my brothers.

-Well, it bothers me. I'm ashamed. It's not... I don't know how to say...

-True guys don't get penetrated, right ?

I remain silent because I feel so bad. It's stupid but I can't help. I breath hard to calm my rising anxiety.

-Sorry, I manage miserably to articulate.

-Do you think I'm not a true guy ?

-No ! Of course no ! I know it's stupid ! Please help me !

He doesn't say anything for a few moments. I'm afraid he's going to get angry.

-How can I help you Jungkook ?

-... By teaching me... I want us to do it, but... not immediately, I need time and you to reassure me ...

He straightens up to hug me tightly, he caresses my back, my hair, my neck.

-Count on me. We trust each other, don't we ? We have time. Don't worry, my Love.

-Thank you so much. I need you Jimin.

-I'm here Jungkook.

I fall asleep in his arms. We're going to make it right. That's for sure.

But other deadlines lie ahead. In July, the agency organizes four Musters, two in Busan, at home, and two in Seoul. These meetings are very important for us because we meet our Korean fans, the ones who have supported us from the beginning. Performing at home has a particular flavor, undeniably. It's like a great communion. It sounds like a concert but it's funnier. We're playing comedy to communicate more with Armys. I love it when we perform Spine Breaker with its funny choreography, largely inspired by Jin. The venue are archi-full, thousands of fans are also installed outside, and one of the shows is even broadcast around the world. In short, it's a great party.