Desired / Chanlix /

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When Christmas was already over, they all started preparing for new years eve. Felix was constantly cooking with Chan's mom and that gave Chan some free time so that he can go and try to start preparing for the wedding. He went to the ritual home to ask for free dates. Yes, Felix didn't know anything, but Chan wanted to know as much as possible when he finds time to finally tell him the surprise. 

He was now walking on the street, talking on the phone with Hyunjin and Jisung. They were trying to help him with ideas, but he didn't really listen to their ideas. 

"Wait, I... I will call you later!" He said and seeing Oscar in front of him, he hung up the phone. He went to hug his friend and giggled at his facial expressions. 

"Your Korean friends?" 

"Yeah, what's up?" 

Oscar showed him his new tattoo and Chan smiled so brightly. "I want me and Felix to have matching tattoos, but since he doesn't let me smoke, he's not doing this either," Chan said. "How's are the others?" 

"Uh, Marissa can't stop talking about Felix. She found his Instagram and she saw the ring. Congratulations, Christopher!" Oscar hugged Chan smiled. 

"Thank you, Oscar!" 

"Where are you going?"

Chan laughed. "Uh, the thing is that I want to marry Felix after we're done with school for this year. So, we're gonna do it here." 

"What happened to the "I want my career, we're never gonna tell anyone" thing, I thought he was okay with it," Oscar said and waited for Chan to answer. He just laughed. 

"He is totally fine with it. I'm not." Chan said. "See, I met a person that is dating one of my friends and he wasn't scared to tell everyone about them. So... I thought about it and I realized that if people don't like us being together, since we're our whole lives together, that's not my problem. I don't give a shit about anything, I just want him and I want to be with him. I want to see him happy." 

"Korea changed you." Oscar joked. 

"Not me, it changed my mind. This guy I'm talking about, he... uh, He hated me and now he's one of the closest I have. Except for Felix and my other friends, but he's like... Uh, you know, he's kind and he has an awful past and he told me about it because he felt safe." Chan told him. "I just saw how he's dealing with it. You know, I am out, Felix is next to me, but I barely can look at him, because someone would find out. And when I saw this guy taking his boyfriend in his lap, feeding him, smiling at him all the time, kissing him, calling him 'baby' and stuff like that, I just realized that I have to start finally living my own life." 

"Christopher openly gay!" Oscar laughed. 

"Did they say something about the post?" 

"Nah. Only Marissa, but she kinda knew. I mean, Felix with makeup, so close to you... She doesn't know that you're gay, but she thinks that you're bisexual and you're dating Felix. And now the ring... She knows. But the others, I don't know. Felix's not that famous." 

"He has literally a hundred likes on this picture." 

Oscar laughed. 

"Well, they might know already." 

Chan shrugged. "So, I don't want to take more of your time..." 

"I'm just going home." 

"Where's your car?" 

"It's broken. Something with the breaks, the guy that took it said that it would be a week. I'm going to die without a car, man. I need it so badly." Oscar almost cried. 

"I know. I still know you. And also, don't forget how many hours we had spent together, I will always know how you feel or what do you think." Chan reminded him. 

"You stopped calling us, Felix used to call us, but for a few months he's not even answering." 

"We had some hard times, but I think it's not intentional." chan assured his friend. "So, if you don't have plans, you can come with me."

"Sure, I would love to!" 

Chan and Oscar started walking to the ritual home, where Chan was going. 

***

"Mom, where's the big suitcase?" Jisung popped in the kitchen. 

"In the closet. Why?" 

"Jinjin needs something bigger for his things." 

"Oh, sure. Uh, take it." She told him and continued whatever she was doing. Jisung came upstairs again and took out the suitcase, giving it to Hyunjin. 

"Do you need my help?" he asked, but Hyunjin kissed him and told him that he's going to be fine. 

"Chan and Felix are coming after new year's eve, so that means we will be only with Minho, Jeongin, Changbin, and Seungmin," Hyunjin told him and sat on the bed. "And Minho..." 

"What about him?" 

"We have to deal with him."

"I don't care, Jinjin. I love you, okay? It's you who matters! Not him." Jisung told him and came closer to kiss him. "There's one thing, little Jiji we can't take him with us." 

"It's not little." Hyunjin laughed. 

"That's the problem..." 

"You will hug him when you're here without me." 

"I thought that I would always come back here with you..." Jisung made the puppy face and Hyunjin laughed and kissed him. 

"Of course, love."