Desired / Chanlix /

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It's been days since Jennie had been raped. It's been days since Seoul Global High School won the football match. It's been days since Hyunjin tried to talk with Chan. 

And at this time, Lisa and Jennie were cleaning the house after the party last night. They were in the kitchen and they were talking.

Lisa was throwing the cups in the trash, while Jennie was trying to clean the counter. They didn't talk much about what happened last night, but they were talking about things that happened long before that. It wasn't the right time for Lisa to speak about it, but she had to. 

"I know you wouldn't answer me, but can I ask you why you want to sleep with everyone?" She asked and came closer. "I've spoken with Lex, and he told me that I have to ask you..." she mumbled. 

"Because I don't want a relationship with anyone. Men are just awful." Jennie answered simply. Yes, she didn't lie, but little did she knew, it wasn't that she hated men or something. She just didn't want to be in a relationship with a man. 

"Well, he raped you twice. And now you're risking it again. And Hyunjin..." 

"Hyunjin did it because he was mad at Chan." Jennie defended him. "I understand him."

Lisa rolled her eyes. She sat down on the chair and breathed in and out. "So, Hyunjin didn't do a bad thing? You're defending him, are you with this shitty Stockholm syndrome?" she asked. "You have to go to therapy if you still think that he didn't do anything bad to you that night."

"It was bad," Jennie said. "But he's not a bad person, I know him. He's struggling because of Chan and that he didn't let him play that game." Jennie answered again and came closer to Lisa. "Why are you asking about it?" 

"Why? Because I'm your best friend. And I'm glad that Jisoo talked with me because you wouldn't do it. Am I right?"

"Yes, you are right, Lisa," Jennie whispered. "What should I do? Should I tell you that he raped me because I'm pretty sure that you would go see him and beat the shit out of him?" Jennie mumbled. "Don't do it, Lisa. I'm good now and I'm sure he didn't want to do it," she said. 

"Well, this pretty much looks like some other case," Lisa mumbled too and came closer to Jennie. She slowly pressed her lips against Jennie's and stood there for a while, until Jennie didn't push her away. 

"What are you doing?" 

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't want to do it, it wasn't on purpose, I just..." Lisa said and went away from Jennie, continuing with the cleaning. "It's the same shit. Hyunjin didn't want to do it, neither did I." 

"Okay, maybe you're right. But I know what bothered him at this time." 

"I don't care, Jennie." Lisa almost yelled. "I don't fucking care, you don't deserve to be treated like a whore, you're a lady!" 

"We spoke yesterday. He said he didn't want to do it." 

"But he fucking did it, Jennie!" Lisa yelled at her. "I'm sorry, I just... I'm not... I don't want you to through all of this again. Not anymore. You don't deserve it." 

"I won't and I will be fine." 

"And this notebook, you can just burn it," Lisa mumbled. Her voice went so low and Jennie was almost scared that this was a calm before the storm. She didn't answer, but she waited for the storm that she knew was coming. Lisa didn't say a word anymore. She started taking out the bags full of trash and when she came in, she didn't even look at Jennie. 

"I will," Jennie whispered. "But this doesn't mean that I will give up on my plan." 

*** 

Felix was sober, but Chan wasn't. Everyone was at that party and Chan made Felix go there too. What happened was pretty clear for Felix, but not for Chan. And there was one thing that he knew, he had to stop going to parties where there were a lot of people. 

"And you don't remember what you did?" Felix asked. "You hugged Jennie for a couple of minutes, trying to dance with her. You tried to kiss Jeongin's girlfriend and also, you licked all the soju from Mina's stomach. What else... Oh, Hyunjin talked with you for some shit, and you almost told him that you fuck me at night." Felix sat on his bed. "What should I feel now? Be happy, because you did all of this?" 

"Are you really jealous of girls, since you know that I am gay?" Chan mumbled, trying to ignore him as much as he could. 

"No, I know that you do stupid shit when you're drunk, and if you don't remember how we left Australia, I can try to bring this to your mind..." 

"I remember. But you weren't drunk yesterday." 

"Chan, do I have to stay sober to watch over you the whole party because you can't stop drinking when you get enough? Do I have to act like a little boy that is in a place that's not for him?"  Felix almost yelled. "And what did Hyunjin say to you?" 

"I don't remember," Chan whispered. "Are you really jealous of Jennie?" 

"Yes, I am." 

"Jennie doesn't like me, she likes Hyunjin. I don't like girls and you know it. I don't see any problem here." he said trying to stay awake. "I'm sleepy." 

"'Course you are." Felix rolled his eyes. "Go get some sleep. I will try to speak with Hyunjin. I need to know what happened yesterday night." 

"We spoke. That's it." 

"I want to know what he told you and why you almost told him that we're a couple!" Felix said and gave him a glass of water and a pill. "Take it, it will help you get over this situation."

Then he just left the room, not even trying to look back at Chan to see how he was. Felix was mad, he was jealous, but he was curious more than he was everything else at this moment. He was curious to know what made Chan almost tell Hyunjin a secret that they're trying to keep. And why didn't he tell anyone of their gang, why would it have to be Hyunjin? This was what Felix had to know.