Desired / Chanlix /

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Chan started playing with Felix's hair. His fingers were slowly making moves, as his eyes were observed by his beautiful smile. The difference between them right now was nothing more than a fact that had nothing to do with their conversation. A conversation that was already started and that would never end up.

"I'm afraid that I have to make the party here or in Jisung's house." He spoke after a few minutes. "This means if I am making it here, you have to find where to be, or you want to come...?" He asked him. Chan's attention was somewhere between the conversation and Felix's freckles.

"I... Chan, I love you and I would love to be there just to be with you, but if any of us get drunk... if we kiss?" Felix asked him. "You know how is itit is, as soon as I get drunk, I become the horniest man you could imagine...." He said quietly. "And if I get drunk and accidentally kiss you?"

"I would take you somewhere private because I would love to fuck you straight away!" Chan laughed. "So, you don't want to come to the party?"

"It's way better this way, trust me." Felix smiled at him. "Should we eat candy now?"

"No, Felix. It's literally 2 in the morning." Chan mumbled. "But we can at least go to sleep..."

"I don't want to! I want to hug you more, because I missed you." Felix mumbled sadly. "Can we sleep in my bed together? Lock the door and no one will see us."

Chan smiled. Of course, he wanted this even more. He didn't only want this he was literally ready to risk his own career for Felix and the more time that passed the more he was willing to risk it all. Felix stood from the ground. "Please!"

"Yeah, we can sleep together, Felix. But for now we cannot do it every night, you understand me?" Chan grabbed his hand, it was so soft and his pure skin reminded him of a newborn baby. Felix nodded.

"Sure, we can't. I just .... We live together and yet, I miss you all the time."Felix spoke.

"Come with me at the party. We'll act as were normal roommates and nothing is going to be wrong." Chan suggested. he knew he was probably lying to Felix, he knew what were the coincidences, he knew that everything could go wrong any minute. And yet, he didn't really think about it, he wanted to be with Felix at any cost. "I will introduce you to Han, Minho, Seungmin and Jeongin, they would love to meet you."

"I don't want to make you feel bad or something, but I don't think this is a good idea. I have to stay sober in order to..."

"We're gonna stay sober if this is the cost, I don't care about the alcohol, Felix! I want you at my birthday party. Let's have fun for once, okay?"

***

It was one of those days when Chan and his gang had the opportunity to see each other before class. Friday and that meant the last day of school for this week. Today no one was outside and everyone was in the hallway. Felix was always walking a few meters behind Chan, this day wasn't any different. They did this every morning, they went to school walking side by side and when they got closer they started walking separated, because they both were scared that anyone could see their secret.

Chan stepped inside and people started applauding, others went closer for a quick talk, and others started gossiping. When he finally came closer to his gang, Jisung gave him a flyer.

"Really? You don't have other stuff to do, so you've made flyers for my birthday party?" Chan started laughing. "So, Can we do it at your place? I don't know if I can handle a party in the dorm..."

"Yeah, sure!" Jisung smiled.

"He told me you're going to take your roommate with you, or..." and there was this time when Felix passed through them. Chan looked at him and nodded.

"I'm not sure he's coming yet, but I am working on it." He said.

"Channie!" Jennie screamed from the other side of the hallway and came closer, hugging him as tight as she could. Felix had stopped at the corner, slightly watching at them. Jealous ran through his body. He hated when Jennie was near Chan, even though everyone knew her past.

He sighed, turning around before someone noticed him looking at them.

"Hey, friend!" someone said and Felix turned to see Changbin behind him. "How are you, Felix?"

"Uhm, I'm fine. And you?" Felix mumbled. "Where's your friend?"

"Hyunjin? Oh, he's probably late again. And I'm good too, thanks." Felix saw Chan approaching, but he didn't say a word to Changbin. He kept his face straight, trying not to expose how happy he was seeing how Chan is looking at them with jealousy in his eyes.

"Seo!" He yelled. "What are you doing with this boy?" he asked.

Changbin turned slowly to look him in the eyes.

"Talking." He said. "Why? Do you want to fuck him, here he is, take it. I don't want to fuck this boy!" Changbin started laughing. Chan bit his lip.

Does he know about us? he asked himself and the second after he came back to the angry look he had before.

"Leave the boy alone! He's not like you, Changbin!" Chan yelled. "Don't come near him, or.."

"Or what? And why do you give a fuck about him? Is he your brother or what?"

"He's my roommate and if I see you any nearer him, I will stab you while you sleep." Felix smiled for a while. He looked Chan in the eyes and he gave him a sign to go away from there. "You hear me? Don't talk with him, or..."

"Or we can all fuck your tight asshole at once." Jisung came and smiled. "And please don't make Chan angry, because this is going to be the end of you." He smiled, grabbing Chan's wrist. "C'mon, let's go!"

"If they become friends Felix would find ways to separate us, I spend every night with him and sometimes he talks with me and... he knows some things."

"So, he's going to be a part of the gang, right?" Jisung suggested. "It's going to be better I think."

"You never know. I'm not sure yet about it. I will try to get him to come at the party."