Desired / Chanlix /

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Felix stood there, and Hyunjin didn't say anything more. None of them knew what to say.
For Hyunjin there was one thing important at this time, he wanted to know why when he liked Felix he never felt nothing strange. Now every time he imagines that night, or just thinks about Jisung, he starts feeling something in his stomach. He never felt something like that. Felix said something, but Hyunjin's mind wasn't there. It was like he himself wasn't there.

"Jisung and Minho are not together?" Felix asked, finally understanding what he had just hear. Hyunjin didn't even managed to look at him, he stood there and he was just looking in the pale sky and doing nothing. "Hyunjin?"

"No. Yes. I.... I don't know, Jisung told me that they broke up, but the day after he went to Minho. One thing I know, Minho was at practice, Jisung wasn't." He said finally and looked at Felix. "I'm sorry, tell Chan that it's not because of him, tell him that it's not some kind of sabotage, I know he thinks I'm trying to ruin everything. I am just trying to feel better." He mumbled and stood from the bench. "I have to find a store that I can buy myself a pack of cigarettes."

"I can come, if..."

"No, please go. Be with your boyfriend and tell him that I'm not doing this to ruin his life." He finally said and started walking away. Felix sighed, standing up and taking the long road home, because he needed time to think about it. It was too strange, starting from the fact that Jisung and Minho weren't together, and ending with the fact that Hyunjin told him something like that. He felt good. He finally made a real friend that's able to show what he truly feels.

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"Where is my notebook?" Jennie asked. Lisa and Jisoo started laughing and that made her look at them. She was mad. "I know you don't want me to follow my plan, but I would rather die than give up now. I'm a step away from taking Chan into my house, girls!" She yelled.

"Lisa didn't tell you, right?" Rose spoke. She didn't even look up from her phone.

"No, don't..." Lisa started and Jennie went a few steps closer.

"Does anyone feel the need to tell me what the hell's happening?" She asked slowly and somehow her voice sounded threatening. Lisa looked at Rose, afraid that she would say something.

"Ask your best friend, Jenn." Rose mumbled and smiled at her phone. "She will tell you everything."

"Lisa?" Jennie asked. There was no response. Rose finally ended with the editing of her photo and gave her phone to her girlfriend and as soon as Jisoo took it, she smiled and gave it back to Rose.

"Upload it." She whispered, trying not to make Jennie mad. Lisa was still quiet.

"Will you say something?" Jennie asked. Once again there was no response. She didn't know what to say. "You know what?" Jennie yelled. "Why am I even trying? You don't think that there's anything that I need to know. But don't you dare to come after me, or to act like you care about me... I'm done. I would rather be on my own, than be friends with you, Lisa!" She yelled at her face and took her purse ready to go. She made a few steps to the door and wrapped her fingers around the handle, while Lisa's voice made her slowly turn around.

"I broke up with Lex." She finally spoke with shaking voice.

"What?" Jennie asked. "Lis, are you okay?" She ran back to her and hugged her tight. Lisa started crying on her shoulder. "Sh, it will be fine." Jennie mumbled and caressed her head. Lisa's touchable and soft hair was something that Jennie loved to feel between her fingers.

"I did it because I..." Lisa started, looking up at her best friend's eyes. "I..." she mumbled again, not able to control her tears or even to find a way to finish the sentence. She bit her lower lip and pushed away Jennie, turning her back at her. "I needed to do it." She finally said, approaching the window. As she ended there, she leaned on it and smiled for a moment through her tears. "I can't live like that anymore."

"Like what?" Jennie asked coming closer to her.

"In a lie."

Only Jisoo and Rose knew what was the lie, Jennie was like she was completely blind.

"What lie? Lis, you're scaring me."

"It's going to be easier if I start from the beginning..." she mumbled more like begging.

"I'm here and I'm listening, so..."

"Remember our first sleepover?" Jennie nodded. "I wasn't really sleeping, because you don't have memories from the time you sleep, and I want to memorize you. Then it was the trip that my parents organized for us. I couldn't stop thinking about going into your bed just to hug you. Then ai met Lex on the concert, and years and years we were only friends because I wasn't ready to forget you. Then I asked Lex out, because I was starting to fall for you really hard. Two years later I'm breaking up with my bestfriend that I wanted to be my boyfriend because of the girl I'm in love with, just to stay here, trying not to cry, because everything I do, I do it for you. And you... you keep running behind boys that eventually end up raping you. And you've been raped three times and how am I supposed to be okay, since I know you're still trying to find your next raper?" She said and turned to see Jennie.

Jennie didn't say anything.

"That's the lie, not your whole life." She finally told her and went out of Jisoo and Rose's room. She rolled her eyes as she kept walking away.