Hi, guys!
Well, I just realize that I accidentally lied to you. Apparently, I don't want to get older and I am still living in my 21 years in any way I can live there. But after less than 24 hours I will be 22 officially. I don't like the number, so I would never tell anyone again that I'm 22, so... IM GOING TO BE 21 AGAIN!
Anyways, sorry for my weird ass shit.
Uh, this is the third chapter for today? Or.... Is it? I don't remember. I drank too many energy drinks and I ate too many energy candies. I can't think straight on a daily basis, but now... Now I just don't even think. Anyway, again I'm sorry for my weirdness.
I wanted to THANK all of you for the amazing 8.5K reads! I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY THAT YOU LIKE IT. I have something in mind for the upcoming chapters and there are going to be interesting, so... I would do everything to write them asap.
So, yeah. As always I feel the need to make people smile, so... here's another chapter for today. I will probably write one more tomorrow because my boss called me and told me that I won't have to go to work tomorrow and I WILL BE HOME IN MY BED DOING WHAT I LOVE TO DO! And many edits coming tomorrow too, so stay tuned!
Love, SD
Felix took his hoodie, ready to go out.
"Remember, if you need me, just call me. If he tells you something that you don't like, or..."
"Chris, I will be fine. We're like close friends now and he's really comfortable to talk with me, so he won't ruin this." Felix told him and kissed him. "I will go now."
"Yes, but anyway, please if you need me..."
"Yes, Chris, I will call you," Felix repeated and kissed him again. I'm really leaving you right now."
He went out and he saw Hyunjin near the stairs as usual. He smiled approaching.
"Oh, that hoodie?" Hyunjin chuckled. "The hoodie with a past?"
"Yes, My favorite one," Felix answered. "The roof?"
"Sure. I need to smoke so badly..." Hyunjin mumbled.
"Okay."
They both started walking to the windows and as soon as they got on the roof, they took a look around to see if it was only them. Felix, because he wanted only Hyunjin to know about him and Chan, and Hyunjin, to be sure that there was no one who can see him smoking.
They sat on the ground and Felix put on the hoodie.
"You're cold?" Hyunjin asked, taking a cigarette out of the box. Felix whispered "a bit".
"But I will be fine."
"You told me you want to go out as soon as possible, what happened?" Hyunjin asked him, lighting the cigarette. "Chan?"
"Uh... It's crazy, but I will start from the beginning." Felix mumbled.
"Okay. Go ahead! Do you want one?" He asked, showing him the box of cigarettes, but Felix shook his head. "So...?"
"So, I told you about Christina?" He started unsure if this was the right way to be done. He had no other choice after he said that, Hyunjin nodded and the conversation had begun.
"So, Christina is not actually Christina. It's Christopher and I'm gay." Felix said and bit his lip.
"Oh, so you have a boyfriend then?" Hyunjin asked him, smoking. "That's okay. I'm okay with it."
"But my roommate's name is Christopher," Felix mumbled.
"So, your boyfriend and your ex-best friend are both called Christopher?" Hyunjin asked him.
"See, I know you like Chan, but... We're together." Felix finally said.
"Together? What? You and Chan?" Hyunjin asked him again. He didn't believe it. He couldn't. He thought something else. And now realizing the truth was hard for him.
"I know you like him, but... We've been together for years, he won't look at you in that way. I'm sorry. Please, don't tell anyone about us, I just... I love him so much and I can't lose him, he can't lose me. Please, just..."
"I don't like him. Felix, I lied to you, I know I didn't have to, but... It happened because of Changbin. He... Anyways, it doesn't matter, I won't make excuses. I'm sorry. I lied to you...." Hyunjin started. His voice was shaking. He didn't look as good as he looked a minute before. "I like you."
"Me?" Felix asked unable to believe it. "You like me?"
"I'm sorry. I was scared that you would reject me." He mumbled. "And of course, you rejected me." Hyunjin took a deep breath. He lit up another cigarette. "I don't know, but I was sure that you weren't straight. But that Chan and you..."
"Can we still be friends?" Felix whispered not able to talk with his real voice. "I don't want to lose friends, ever since my "friends" don't really care about me. I just go out with them sometimes and when you came into my life, I felt better. Chan has a lot of friends and..."
"I raped a girl because I was scared that I started liking you. I raped Jennie. Don't be a friend of mine. I'm not a good person, Felix." he whispered. "Go away from me. Leave me, go be with the one you love. Just... Don't mess up with me, I'll drag you somewhere you don't have to go..." he said and Felix got up.
He was almost crying when he turned and went inside without even looking back at Hyunjin. He was disgusted. He couldn't even believe it. When he entered the room, Chan stood from the bed and went to hug him, seeing him almost crying.
"Baby, what happened?"
"Jennie..." He managed to mumble and he lost control over his body, so he started crying loudly. "He..."
"Shh, baby... It's gonna be fine." Chan whispered in his ear and helped him go to the bed to sit there. "Don't cry, love. Look at me!"
Felix looked up at him and nodded. "He raped her because he didn't like you, but me. He raped Jennie. Is she good? I'm..." Felix couldn't speak more, because he started crying more and more. Chan was shocked too. But he just took Felix in his lap and started caressing him, trying to make him feel a bit better.
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