The Cold Billionaire

Chapter 42

Mabilis kong pinalis ang mga luhang kanina pa naglalandas saking pisngi. Nakalabas na ako sa hotel. Nag aabang na lng ako ng taxi, ng walang ano anoy may biglang humaklit sa braso ko.

"Where are you going Maddy? What happen to you? Why are you crying?'' pilit hinahawakan ni Baste ang mukha ko at inihaharap sa kanya. Panay naman ang piglas ko upang iiwas iyon.

Subalit dahil nanghihina na ay wala akong magawa ng tuluyan nya na akong maiharap sa kanya.

He was looking at me intently.

"Tell me what happened? Who made you cry? Kanina pa ako tawag ng tawag sayo.' " saka nya ako kinabig at mahigpit na niyakap.

As if on cue, agad nagsiunahan sa pagpatak ang mga luha ko. Nagpabalik balik saking isipan ang mga katagang sinabi ni Drei. 

I love you Shantal.

I love you Shantal.

I love you Shantal.

Tila isang bomba iyon na sumabog saking harapan na wumasak saking puso. Hindi ko na namalayang humihikbi na Pala ako. Mahigpit ang kapit ko sa laylayan ng suit ni Baste.  Tila doon ako kumukuha ng lakas upang huwag tuluyang mawalan ng lakas at humandusay na lng. 

"I.... I s-saw them. I s-saw them, it's fucking h-hurting me. I c-cant s-seem to b-breath. Ang s-sakit ang sakit sakit" i whisper in between my sobs.

"Hushed now. Hey. Stop crying"  ako nya sakin. He was gently tapping my back to comfort me.

T-take me a-away from h-here p-please" muling hikbi ko.

"Okay,. I'll take you away from here just please relax Maddy. Your scaring the hell out of me"  saka nya ako iginiya palayo. Bago pa man kami umabot sa sasakyan nya ay nagdilim na ang aking paningin at wala na akong ibang matandaan pa.

Amoy alcohol ang bumungad sa aking amoy ng dahan dahan akong nagmulat ng paningin.

Puting dingding agad ay bumalandra saking paningin. Where I am now. Akmang tatayo sana ako ng mahagip ng mata ko si Baste na nakayupyop saking tabi.

Nasa hospital ako.

Marahan ko syang niyugyog upang kunin ang kanyang pansin. Ilang sandali lamang ay naalimpungatan sya at bumaling sakin.

"Oh my God your awake now. May masakit ba sayo. I'll call the doctor. Your hungry? What do you want to eat" medyo natatarantang wika nya, mabilis kong inabot ang kamay nya upang patigilin sya.

"I'm fine  Baste. Why I'm here?"

"You sure" paninigurado nya at sunod sunod na tango ang sinagot ko sa kanya. "You suddenly went unconscious kaya I rushed you here. I'm so damn worried kaya idiniretso kita dito".

Napahawak ako sa impis kong tiyan dahil sa sinabi nya. Is my baby fine. Sinundan nya ng tingin ang mga kamay kong humahaplos saking tiyan.
Til nabasa nya ang nasa isip ko.

"Your baby is fine" mabilis lumapat ang mga mata ko sa sinabi nya nag iwas sya ng tingin. But it's too late, I saw sadness in his eyes this time.

"You knew?"

"The doctor informed me while you were still asleep. He said you collapse because of too much stress and anxiety besides mahina raw ang kapit ng baby. You should refrain yourself from stressing out instead relax your mind. Tell it to your husband ng maalagaan ka nya. I don't have the heart to asked you what happened kanina sa hotel. I think it's too private for me to go beyond that, I knew you were not that emotional if it's not matter that much to you. I'll call your husband to informed him your here and for him to know about your condition___ " .

"He don't know about it" I cut him off. "Please don't tell it to him. I'm planning of leaving him Baste. I don't want him to know about my condition. I- I s-saw him kissing Shantal kanina. I h-heared him telling her he l-loves h-her" saka muling tumakas ang mga luha saking mga mata.

I looked up Baste. Nagtiim bagang sya, I can't fully ready what's his eyes are expressing now. There's a lot of emotions in there I find hard to name.

"Please"  I pleaded to him then reached for his hands.

"He deserve to know Maddy. That his child too." malamig nyang sabi.

"No please no. I intend to kept it to myself. I don't want him to choose me because of the baby or worst he might take my child way from me. Si Shantal ang Mahal nya. Alam ko iyon at mas naliwanagan pa. I can't bear to loose my child Baste. I might die." saka ako naiyak lalo sa pinaghalong sakit at sama ng loob. "Please do that for me. Help me with this one. I know somehow nasaktan kita. Pero Baste I need help now. Please tulungan mo ako,  only I and Krizia knows about this and since you knew it now. Please help me too. I need to run away. I need space to breath. I needed to be way from all of this. Mahina ang kapit ng anak ko. If I stayed here and sees all the messed around me I might lost my child. I should be away, it's better for me to be away. Please Baste help me."  I sounded so desperate like I'm asking my own life to be spare.

Ginanap nya ng mahigpit ang kamay ko. Nag angat ako ng tingin at sinalubong ang mga mata nya.

"You don't have to beg me for that. I'm always here for you no matter what. When do you plan to leave?"

"Thank you. I want to leave tomorrow." Matapang Kong sinabi. "Can you help me do that. Like Krizia you too have many connections. She already did my fake identity so that Drei can't locate me where I'm I. I already got the passport kanina with that new name I have."

"So it's all planned then. I'm coming with you ".

Nabigla ako sa sinabi nya. Umawang ang bibig ko.

"You can't stop me Maddy. If you want my help you'll let me come with you. I'll just stayed with you until I make sure your okay."

"But you don't have to do that. "

"I'm okay to do that. Besides wala na akong gagawin. Naghihintay na lng tayo ng graduation. It's only a month from now. Uuwi ako rito pag graduation day na. Sasamahan lng muna Kita para masiguro ko talagang maayos ka. Don't worry I won't do anything stupid. If thats what bothers you. I came for you Maddy a lot. Hindi man tayo magkatuluyan but you've been a biggest part of me and I care for you a lot. Let me do it as a even as friend now. I wasn't there for you when you needed me before I want to stayed with you now. " Saka nya inabot ang aking kamay. I smiled at him and squeezed his hand and utter thank you.

This is it anak. We need to go. It's not like mommy don't want to give you a complete family. I can but what I can't assure you if I can give you a happy one. I won't settle for being having  just a complete family. Because my child deserves a complete and happy one. At hindi ko maibibigay ko. Walang assurance na magiging masaya ang pamilyang bubuuin namin kapag pinili kong manatili at gustuhing bigyan ng kumpleto at buong pamilya ang anak ko. Baka maging miserable lng kaming lahat SA huli. Ma tatrapped lng kami ng ama nya ng lubusan sa isang kasalang sa simula pa lng ay wala ng patutunguhan.