Mockingjay's Daughter (Hunger Games Fanfiction)

Chapter 42: The Truth Hurts

Peeta's P.O.V

It's been a day since I was released from the psychiatric unit. I wasn't there for long (only a couple of days) but they have been trying to find out what's triggered my outburst flashback on Katniss. They have also been trying to find a cure for preventing it from happening again since my medication isn't working anymore.

But we already know what's triggering it.

I can't even begin to explain how guilty I feel, I never meant to hurt Katniss. I love her. I hate putting even more stress and pressure on her. Its not fair she has to endure all of this. I have tried as often as I can to apologise to her. She says it's ok but we all know it's not.

Katniss said that she thinks the cure is Willow because when she said her name, I stopped hurting her. I think it is too.

Groggily, I rise from the single bed and look over to my left to see Katniss sound asleep in the other. We can't share a double bed. I rise and start to take off my pyjamas and dress into my clothes for today.

"Peeta?" Katniss mumbles sitting upright.

Her chocolate brown hair is out of its usual side braid, sprayed out in every direction and dark circles are highlighted beneath her tired grey eyes. I look at her and smile, she's so beautiful, she doesn't even need to try and look it.

"You're awake." I state rather than ask.

I approach her and sit on the end of her bed, she looks up at me and gives a half smile.

"This is gonna sound crazy, but I thought that yesterday was all a weird dream. I thought you still hated me and wanted to kill me..."

I shake my head then start hugging her softly. "I never will hate you Kat. I love you, don't ever forget or disbelieve that for a second." She looks at me in doubt. "Do you understand me? I will never, ever leave your side or hurt you anymore."

"But what if you have a flashback Peeta? What am I suppose to do then?" She whimpers.

"What you told me before. Just say her name."

She nods sighing. "That will be the the best cure."

"I think that too." I agree.

After a short silence, she says; "I miss her."

"I do too." I kiss Kats forehead. "And to think what they will be doing to her makes it all so much worse. Though we will get her back."

"But." She gulps. "What if they can't rescue her? What if the Capitol have already-"

"Don't say it." I shush her by placing my index finger on her lips. "Its not true Kat. That won't happen. We can't let it."

"Peeta, you know what they are like. They will stop at nothing to hurt us...mainly me." Katniss sits up more shaking. "I...I..."

"What?" I jump at her tone of voice. "What is it?"

"I...can't..."

"Can't what?" I ask repetivly.

"Lose..." She lets out in a breathy whisper then gulps. "A-a-anoth-another..."

"Another..?"

With that, she just shakes her head. "No-nothing Peeta. Breakfast will be ready, we should go before we miss it." Katniss then rises and starts getting ready, acting really strange.

"What where you going to say before..?" I ask suspiciously, trying to study her.

"Nothing." She answers quickly, starting to get ready.