Mockingjay's Daughter (Hunger Games Fanfiction)

Chapter 25: Feeling's

His eyes are bleeding with shock from what I've just said. I can hardley believe that I have just said that to him either.

"Go away Drakob," I whisper lowering my head so I don't have to look at him.
"I cannot deal with all this fighting anyomore. There's only five of us left." I say as a cannon goes off, marking Fletchs death. "Like you said, one of us should seperate so one of us is closer to getting out of here." I don't know if I even believe a single word I'm saying. It all seemed to be coming out like word vomit. "It should be you."

He shakes his head, putting him large hands on my shoulders. "No," he lets out. "You don't mean that Willow. I know you don't."

At this point I don't even know myself anymore.

"It's not fair that you are always protecting me from danger, I need to be able to help myself. No relying on you anymore." My breathing starts becoming more uneven.

"Willow-"

"Go. Please just go Drakob," I sob.

He can't even look at me. Drakob gets his sword from where he left it after killing Fletch and leaves without bringing his spear, without saying a word at all.

When he's out of sight, I continue to cry.

"Willow? Why are you crying?" Autumn asks me.

"Nothing. I'm just fine," I lie.

She frowns her face, not believing me. "You're not, anyone can see that," she informs me truthfully.

"Everything," I whimper. "Just everything..." I then sob into tears again flashbacks starting. "The people I've killed mostly..."

"Oh," her body stiffened. "Who?" Oh god, I can't tell her. Her emerald green eyes shine. "I haven't killed anyone yet...I don't know if I can."

"I thought that too, I've only ever done it for self defence. It's horrible. One of the most horrible feeling you can experience, that's why I got so angry with Drakob." I breath calmly again.

"It's like he does not understand how I feel and he should. Anyone with a decent heart should."

"You were going to shoot me. You held the arrow at me long enough." She was right. I don't even know why I was going I do that myself. "But anyway," she says after a short silence. "Drakob probably does feel bad, he's probably just hiding it." Again, Autumn was speaking the truth.

"Even so it doesn't matter. He's gone now. I made it clear he's unwanted." I ecco.

"But do you really feel that way?" She asks. "I can see it in your eyes, both of your eyes that you feel something for one another," before I can say my words, Autumn adds. "Oh and don't deny it."

"I-" She's right. As hard as it is to admit it, she's so right.

"See," she nudges me. "You do."

"Shut up," I say jokingly. "It's complicated. I just feel like I need to put him before myself. It's stupid I know but-"

"-you love him?"

What?! I scoff at this. "No one said anything about love Autumn. Besides," I try and defend myself. "I'm only fourteen."

Wow. My parents were watching this right now. This was so embarrassing beyond words.

"Whatever you say," she says sarcastically knowing...the truth?

No.

I like Drakob (not that I'm going to admit it) I don't know why. But love?! No way.