Mockingjay's Daughter (Hunger Games Fanfiction)

Chapter 26: Fall Leaf's

I've just killed my apparent 'friend' Autumn...I don't even know her last name. I never even asked her or payed attention when her name was called out.

Shaking my head to block out the thought, I quickly climb down the large tree, gripping the bark for safety and then find a suitable place to jump off safely. I leap down and land on my feet smoothly then rush over to Autumns corpse, kneeling down to see if she was really dead, even though I already know the answer.

Autumns short auburn hair is sprayed out around her face; single strands on her full parted lips. Her illuminating green eyes are piercing at me in disgust for killing her. Them eyes made her whole face lit up, that's what I noticed in her when we first met. But now the light had been switched off. By me. They have a dimness in them now, lifeless you could say.

You would say.

Her long hands are clutching where I shot her, seeping blood still flowing from it. Atleast she didn't die slowly and painfully, I guess

I never wanted to kill her. I had absolutely no intention to, despite having to at some point. Again, I only did because she was trying to kill me. She had her reasons, I told her that I had killed her best friend for crying out loud! But I had to tell her, the overwhelming guilt would consume me if I didn't.

That's four people I've killed now. That girl in the eye, boy from nine, girl career and Autumn. I will never forgive myself for this, for any of this.

How am I going to be able to live with this guilt which is constantly weighing on my shoulders for the rest of my life? How can my parents live with it? They had to both go through it twice, I'm surprised that they had me to be honest.

I know that the main reason why my Mom mainly had me was because Dad badly wanted children. She couldn't have anymore after me, the fear consumed her and Dad understood this. I love that my parents have each other.

I could never see myself having any kids when I'm older. The same reason as my Mom.

"Autumn," I wail. "I'm-" I cut off by crying in a heap. God I always cry! I hear a slight moan coming from her which cranes up my neck. "Are you alive?" I ask hoping. But no, I'm just being paranoid.

I try and remember some lullaby songs from the top of my head. "Shall I sing at Bridge End?" I remember reading the District tradition lullaby's in a children's book my Mom gave me years ago. This was one of the most popular lullaby's on 9 I believe. I stroke her hair as I slowly begin to sing;

"Hush and shush the day is over,

Dawn is soon approaching,

Rest and lay your head back,

going to look after you,

gonna to care for you,

Waiting for you at bridge end,

Night is approaching,

The day is at end,

Light waits at ends tunnel

The light waits on bridge end."

I let out softly.

Opening my eyes, I see she's still dead. Her heartbeat is frozen and her expression is slightly relaxed. As if she's sleeping soundless. I try and hold back my tears some more.

Something light taps my head. I look up to see that crispy brown, yellow and auburn leaves where falling from the...green leafed trees?

They reminded me of Autumn.