RUDE BOY

Shatters

Jay Paris p.o.v

After school I went straight to my girl's house to talk things out and see what the fuck happened. I hope and pray to God Jason didn't sneak diss me. I swear if that's the case I will be after his head like a hungry foam spittin rottweiler.

I knocked on the door to her house and her mama answered.

"Hello. What brings you here?", she said.

"Hi, uh...something happened earlier at school that caused Nakita to cry today. So I just dropped by to check up on her".

"Hmm. She was sort of down when she came home today",she said.

I began to open my mouth to say something but I couldn't speak. I began to feel guilty like I caused her pain because...

"Come in", she said.

I came in and sat down on one if the couches in the living room. Nakita's mama told me to wait there as she goes upstairs to get Nakita.  As soon as she left up the stairs far enough until I couldn't hear her footsteps anymore I immediately broke down into tears.

I felt so bad. I don't know why. I felt as if I'm not good enough and I felt as if she didn't trust me. I hid my face in my shirt tried to stop the tears.

Maybe I was stressing too much or thinking too hard. I put my hands together hoping that our relationship wouldn't end at this point beginning to put positive thoughts into my head. Like, maybe she just got into trouble or maybe she lost something important. Still, would she really cry over things like that? Is she sensitive?

I heard footsteps come back down the stairs. I immediately start to rub my face and change my mood to seem normal. To hide the evidence of what just happened.

Nakita's mama comes down stairs and walks towards me with her arms crossed.

"What happened?"

I open my mouth to say something but my throat began to get scratchy and my eyes began to water again. I swallow and wipe my eyes and try to suck it up.

"Uhm,..I.. --", I couldn't speak. I began to feel a burning sensation in my throat and I began to breathe harder the more. I try to keep in the tears.

I couldn't hold it in, I'm a bitch.

I began to cry and sniff.

I felt Nakita's mama hand rub my back.

"Go talk to her", she said in a soft comforting tone.

I nodded my head and stood up taking a deep breath walking with her mama as she lead me upstairs to Nakita's room.

She knocked on the door, informing Nakita I was coming in.

There was no answer but she let me inside.

Her mama left closing the door, I started  trembling. I walked slowly to her bed sitting down next to her gently. Who knows when this girl will snap?

She was sitting on her bed with her knees to her face sniffing wiping her face.

I placed my hand slowly on her back.

"Baby?", she didn't answer.

I slid my hand down slowly off her back.

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10 minutes passed.

I've called her name and told her I was sorry. I even told her the whole story about what went down between me and Jason. She still hadn't made any progress what so ever of speaking to me. She lifted her head up while I talked to her and I would see her read eyes full of tears.

Only thing I've gotten from her were sniffles and tears, no eye contact.

I began to get impatient, and irritated.

I got up and walked around the room stretching my arms over my head. Trying to get some circulation going through my head before I pop a fuse. I took a deep breath.

"Jay.. ", she said in a soft voice.

I turned quickly and sat back on her bed.

"Yes baby?"

"I need you to be honest with me".

"I was. I didn't lie at---"

"No..not about that. About... Steven".

My eyes grew wide. I couldn't help to think that she know the embarrassing story of... My real dad.

I grew angry. I felt my blood pressure go up and I began to breathe faster. I balled up my fists then she grabbed my hand. I immediately calmed down. She looked at me, deeply into my eyes.

Everything in my body returned to its regular state.

"Just tell me. Is it true? "

.....I nodded.