Satan School of Sophomores

Figure My Heart Out: 1/29/15

6:33am Thursday, January 29

I'm fucking alive, and my whole life is ahead of me. I don't ever want to worry again. I'm going to travel the world, see everything, feel everything. I don't even doubt it. I'm happy.

I'm listening to Class Historian By BRONCHO, and it sounds like Billy Idol.

9:16pm
I must be on drugs every morning. What the hell. But still, good day. Semi-stressing about hanging out with Rob tomorrow at his house. What are we going to do? I mean, I know what I would like to do, but he might have a whole other idea. Whatever. At least we'll get to be together and hang out without every bitch in the world trying to get involved.

Today was the first day of new semester. We have these lockers in art class that you share with someone else, and I chose to share mine with R, because Madi and May had already paired up, so I didn't know what else to do. He was fine with it, and I felt like I had kinda pushed us together, but it's really not a big thing. JJ the slut was pissed about it, though. She wishes he liked her so badly. Ugh.

I now have textiles class with Scarlet, Hayley, Olive, Joy, Cara, and Tamera. That's like half our crew, and it's so fun to have a class with lots of friends!! I am really excited.

I keep watching this really inappropriate Tumblr gif over and over. I can't place why. Ever have that strange mesmerized feeling while watching a video?

Kota started texting me this evening saying, "I can't stop looking at you in art." Uh... Well? In the wise words of Clark Gable (Gone With the Wind), "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn." Although, I am flattered.

Then Rob (jokingly) asked me to make out with him in the bathroom instead of going to second period. I replied, "Hahahaha why the hell do you keep asking me that?" He's such a flirt. Makes me freak out inside.

9:46pm
I find it funny how we are all so sexual. At least all my friends are, but it's funny. I don't know, I like it. I like being young and fun and flirty. Such a simple time.

Am I super loyal? I think I am. When I like one guy, it's him and only him. I can't be any other way, not if I'm serious.

9:57pm
Now I'm stressed out once again.

10:10pm
Oh wait no. Not stressed anymore. Madi says R always has his face in "that book I gave him" during bio. I felt really happy to hear that. Maybe he's trying to figure me out. Which would be nice, because no other guy has tried that.