I used to think that everything was so simple.
The smile, laughter, joy, sorrow and pain we share together would all pass by.
I felt stuck in time as if those days would endlessly keep repeating.
I was ignorant of the imminent future that continued to approach me.
I was apathetic while everyone knew where they'd go and what they'd do next.
They have this whole plan laid out in front of them.
While I...
Just stood there blankly, staring at that empty space in our room
Wishing that time would stop so that I'll never worry about what'll happen next
Anxiety grew inside of me.
I always thought that maybe...
Fate, Destiny, Or God
would make that choice for me.
But when they start asking, "What do you want to be?"
"Who are you after the next ten years?"
"Where will you be?"
"How far will you go?"
I'd freeze, my palms would sweat and I'd start biting my nails.
"What comes next?"
It's the same thing that haunts my mind every night.
What will happen to me?
To be honest, I already knew the answer.
I always wanted to say,
"I want to die."
But that's too vexing for someone like me to say.
They'd ask, "Why?"
"Just cause" or "Why not?"
I mean isn't that hilarious?
Wanting to die 'cause you're scared and anxious of the unknown future that's yet to come.
Running away from a fight that hasn't even begun.
It's stupid and cowardly.
You could do so much more with the life you have
Why throw it away just 'cause you're scared when you don't even know what'll happen?
Rather isn't it exciting?
Don't you wanna live just for another day to see the life you wrote, created and walked?
Don't be scared because of a few mistakes, failures and screw up in life.
It goes on whether you like it or not.
So just for a few more days
Stay with me and see whether the life you have is worth living or not.
I'll be with you to remind you that you're not alone.
