Passion could be something we want and truly desire. A passion to love, dance, sing, write, draw, study, etc. It isn't just a simple hobby. It's about wanting to do these things because they give you happiness and the amount of fulfillment you need. You do it for a purpose and reason, it could be your motivation or what keeps you going, and move forward.
It's like a missing part of you that you're desperately looking for. You could say that it's a desire, an obsession or a fascination but, to me, they only mean one thing that it's the screaming of your heart saying what it wants.
My passion is to write. I write my thoughts, opinions and create stories. I rely on my imagination and feelings. It makes me think, "Yes! This is what I want people to see, feel and understand. I want to show the whole world my feelings."
I am not good at communication so I often rely on my pen and paper to let them do the talking. I was an only child who had no siblings and only had a few friends. It was a lonely childhood but it was still fun. I might be alone but I have time to spend my time imagining all sorts of things.
I thought that what if objects were alive, what if I wasn't human, what if I was just a doll, what if I had a different family, what if I didn't exist, what if I was in another dimension, what if I was the opposite gender and all the possible what-ifs. I had all kinds of thoughts scary, funny, unique, weird, and sad thoughts. Thanks to my wide imagination, I got to experience things I would never have thought about, and portray all sorts of emotions I have inside of me. It was a rollercoaster ride.
I aspire to become a writer someone who will make history and blow people's minds to what I'm about to write. I'm gonna spread my name to the whole world and show them how awesome and cool I am. After that, I will become the librarian of my own books where I will personally tend and organize the books one by one. To others, it may sound like a boring or lifeless job but to me, it's the exploration of a whole world. A never-ending adventure as I venture towards people's feelings and minds. Learning and trying to figure out what I should write for the next chapter where people will be dying to know what happens next.
However, it's all just a futile dream. No matter how I feel, the reality is there to slap me hard and forcefully bring me back to the world where I belong. The world where I am just an ordinary person working for a job I don't enjoy. Where every day will become tiring and lifeless as I continue on. There's one thing though...
I write these thoughts not only for you and the people out there but also for me. You see, I do these things like writing my feelings because I'm scared that one day it will just burst and let loose. I do this story to name and identify the demons in my head. How can you defeat an enemy you don't know?
As a ruler of war, it is important to identify your enemies. How can you win when you don't even know who you're fighting against? You need information on how it moves, it's weaknesses and strategy that way you'll have a counterattack against it. I consider these negative thoughts and feelings as demons that I have to defeat. You could say that I am at constant war with them.
It's a battle inside my head that will never end as long as I'm dead. There will be a day when these demons will overwhelm me and I will feel tired, hopeless and restless. All I can promise is that as long as I live, I won't be consumed and defeated because if I'm still alive then it means that I'm still fighting.
For me, this is how important writing is.
It may not happen now! It might take a long time but I have no plans of giving up my dream anytime soon. I will make surely make it happen no matter what it takes and how hard it will be. Even if I'm old and scrawny, I'll see to it that it will happen even if it's just once. I don't have to be known worldwide just acknowledged, accepted and recognized then that will be enough for me.
Never give up! Don't try it away!
There is no such thing as wasted effort only wasted time if you know what you want then go get it. Don't hesitate if you believe that this is the one for you! Just wait then it will be.
