Each and every one of us is selfish.
That is a fact that you can't deny because if we aren't then we won't be able to last long.
There will always be at some point in time that we desire or show our selfishness.
So have you ever thought of sacrificing your life for another?
You must have.
Talking to your lover, telling her you'll risk your life for her
Whether it's family, friends or people you've treasured
You must have told or thought about risking your life for them
As long as you get to protect them
But let's be honest
You won't and you probably never will.
Why?
When you're at the gate of death
And the grim reaper asked you
Whether you'll save yourself or your friend
Trust me, that you will say that you want to save yourself
Because at that moment
When the door presents itself to you
Your whole life will flash before you
You'll remember your regrets, happiness, and reasons to live
It's ironic since when you're alive
You can't find any reason to live
But when death lingers and awaits you
You'll remember your whole reason of existence
The moment you ran away from the presence of the death
Your friend whom you promised that you'll sacrifice your life to
Will haunt you because just like you, he also wanted to live
If you truly cared for him
Then why'd you abandon him
And if he cared for you
Why would he resent you for running away
When he too, wanted to run away?
Just like you, he has a family waiting for him at home
Just like you, he still has plans with his friends to hang out
Just like you, he still has dreams and things he wanted to do
But you've forgotten that
Because you were selfish
Am I saying that being selfish is bad?
Honestly, I don't know
I'm sure that I would have done the same cruel thing
That's why I don't make promises
Despite that, there are also people who remain selfless
People who have accepted their death are truly fearless people
They are the ones who can face death without fear
Because they already knew and accepted their fate
Not anybody can do that
Yes maybe one day we could accept it
But as we are now, we are simply immature and childish beings
So when death came knocking at your door
You'll want to run away because you're not ready
It just happens so suddenly and unexpectedly
The day I broke my promise
And the day I sacrificed a friend
Will scar my heart forever
The guilt and remorse will be a burden
That I shall carry until my last breath
Wanting to run away
I blamed everything
My parents, our friends, my lover and God
It didn't involve them but I couldn't ease the pain what I was feeling inside.
This fear and sadness hides in the mask of anger
Blaming everybody else and resenting them for something that they didn't do
Even though I knew their reasons, I closed my eyes and pushed them away
Telling myself that it wasn't my fault
I was afraid of the responsibility and guilt
So as I always have been doing I ran away again
Living another day in exchange for killing someone else
They deserve to live but I pushed them unto the cliff because I didn't want to die
Either they live or I die
