When I opened my eyes, all I saw was white.
I knew that it was cramped but to actually see how tight the space was, is different.
I tried moving around but I couldn't find any comfortable position.
My mother whispered and said, "I built this shell to protect you so as long as you're inside then you'll stay safe."
I thought that the shell was supposed to be my haven but I never thought it'd turn out to be my hell.
Maybe I misheard my mother words
Because rather than protecting me, it tortures me.
This tight space that suffocates me and squeezed me
As I grow larger and larger.
I've always imagined how I'd break free from the shell but I never did.
Everyone else grew up and broke their shells but I remained inside it because I couldn't find a way to escape it.
I tried breaking it a couple of times but my shell was too strong and too sturdy for me to break.
The outside was fragile but it's inside was too strong.
I was getting impatient so I asked "Mother, when will I get out of this shell?"
"You don't have to, you can't live in this world all by yourself so I'll protect you.
Mother will always be here."
At first, I thought that her overprotection was her way of showing affection...
But it wasn't.
It was her desire and possessiveness.
She didn't treat me like a daughter.
She treats me like a pet and an accessory that is bound to be beside her.
A fragile object that is meant to be protected since the smallest crack could break it.
But who was it, that made this way?
Wasn't it you?
Who moulded me and turned me this way?
What purpose does a bird have, when she can't even fly?
A bird in a tree who lost her ability to fly even though she had wings just like everyone else.
You wanted to protect your child not knowing you're just giving her more risks instead.
Do you even know how worthless a bird feels losing her ability to fly?
She possess wings but her wings are nothing more than a decoration.
It's just an extended arm that grew limp since she wasn't able to use it.
Even if she wanted to learn how could she?
When she's still trapped inside of the shell.
Time passed and she grew larger than before but nothing changed.
Her body was being twisted and deformed in unbelievable ways inside of the shell.
She wept and begged her mother "Mom... please help me.
I want to get out."
Her mother simply shouted
"NO!
How many times must I tell you that the world outside is a dangerous place!
That's why you must never get out."
"But mom.. I'm - "
"Silence!
I don't want to hear another word from you!"
She did as her mother said, just like she always did.
Days passed and not a single noise was heard from the egg
So the mother approached it and talked, "Dear, are you still angry?
I'm sorry but you do understand that mother is protecting you, right?
You don't know whats out there.
There's all kind of predators and I didn't want to endanger you so you have to remain inside.
After all, the safest place you could be is by your mother's side.
Nothing could ever hurt or harm you here."
She snuggled the egg as if it was the most precious thing she ever have.
Not knowing that the baby she's been trying to protect all her life
Is already dead.
Break out of your shell or it will break you.
