Others say that you need other people in your life, in order to live and survive.
They say that people who try to live that kind of life portray themselves as strong mighty and all-knowing.
Even so, I still disagree with this way of living my life not because I'm extremely confident in myself or in fact maybe I am regardless I want this kind of life for the reason that this is the most I'm comfortable at. Maybe I want to be with people but not to be connected or to be close to them.
They say that people who disconnect themselves, live a life full of loneliness and die a pitiful death. If that's the case I'm prepared to do so, just to prevent myself from hurting other people. If being with others caused them pain then I can't bear to see them suffer because of my thoughts, action, and words. I'd rather separate myself from them than to destroy them along with the process of destroying me.
Of course, they'd disagree saying it's all right or that it's normal but I had enough of it. I'm tired of being hurt, hurting others and helplessly watching someone in pain.
I just want to run away from all of it...
The report in the article I have read included that being alone could cause mental illness. I don't mind cause I've been crazy, to begin with.
All I see and hear wherever I walk by is that you need someone in life but what if you lose hope to those people in your life because you grew distant to one another. You see each other, chat, talk, laugh and spend time together on a daily basis however you feel as if it's lacking. That it's not enough there's still that invisible barrier between you that can't make you feel connected to them.
No matter the effort, the desperation or feelings you feel as though it lacks even if it's too much to have. I continue to greed for more.
This feeling inside my chest that I can't seem to explain or find the words. I wonder what emotion is this?
Sadness? Despair? Empty? Or is it...
Loneliness
Humans are social beings who seek help and cooperation in their lives in order to achieved and fulfill their needs.
If that's so, then tell me once that we've failed to be social then does that mean that we've also failed as humans? We all have our own different way of communicating whether it's through our voice, actions, movements or words. We've all tried it is just up to the one on the receiving end on how to interpret it. Once that person fails to do so, never blame yourself for not being able to communicate or relay your message to the other person know that you've tried. Blame yourself when you didn't even take that first step.
That one particular person might not be able to understand but there's a whole lot of people out there who's just like you and understand you just wait for it. That person will come and enter your life as no one has ever done before.
