Have you ever felt so useless in life that everything seemed so out of reach? Boring? Tiresome? Impossible? And sometimes even ridiculous? How about what comes next in the future? Did you think of that? Can you imagine yourself smiling at that time just like the way you do now? Even better? I'm sure that everyone at some point in life has imagined what their future will be like.
When everyone around has something they're good at and passionate about. Whether it's a hobby, sports, academics, or something they simply enjoy doing. It makes you think that this person has something that she wants and desires. A goal they wish to achieve and make or something that they want to pursue. It makes you realize that these people have a future waiting for them although they don't know what will happen next, they are dedicated to chasing it and that leaves you alone thinking... How about you? What do you want to do? What do you love, take pride in and passionate about?
As I waste my time away, focusing on the present and using the excuse to enjoy life at the moment while also wasting it away by doing pointless things that don't matter. Finding the spark and passion to work hard and move on towards the future yet still failing in everything I desire to do. I try to do something that I love, might love but there's no fire burning in me, no passion and just empty feelings about works that I'm not satisfied in and interesting in doing. I find it difficult to find the things I love when I like everything. How can I know that this is the one I want and truly desire?
Even janitor/janitress, security guard, farmers, carpenters, construction workers, etc. have jobs that they can be proud of and do. They might be small jobs but they're also people who are considered useful to society. Do I need to become a prostitute? In order to prove myself useful and give worth to our society. Or will I rot away?
Am I going to become a neet and a shut-in? What is important in the future to fulfill the passion of what I want to do or to excel at what I'm good at? What if I don't have both? What if I don't have a passion and something that I'm particularly good at? What if I'm just average at everything? If so what should I do? Is money what I should focus at or something that I want for myself?
