𝐈&𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐃𝐈𝐁𝐋𝐄, 𝐞𝐧𝐡𝐲𝐩𝐞𝐧

weak

// mentions of ED, other health issues,
mental issues.

weak.

that's all she felt.

although everyone who'd recently watched her and been around her have seen the usual happy, energetic NaRi everyone knew— she felt as if her world was crashing down.

since her trainee days, NaRi's eating habits had gone........ south.

there'd be days where she'd barely eat a cracker, water being the only thing in her system. the days where one of BigHit's groups would come to visit their favorite girl— only to find her sprawled out on the floor, unable to breathe.

it got no better when I-Land came. sure, she'd eat with the boys and stay hydrated— but did you ever notice her simple picking at the food? or the giving one of the boy's her food?

ring a bell?

the only member to know about this,

the one who knew literally everything about NaRi— HeeSeung.

truthfully, if TXT's YeonJun hadn't told him about the numerous times they'd had to bring her back to health after her starving periods, he wouldn't have ever found out.

nobody would ever expect this from NaRi, not even the boys who'd already spent around half a year with her.

it was the day before the group's Given-Taken promotions began, this being their last free day for a while.

NaRi had abruptly woken up that morning, this time in Jay's bed, accidentally waking the older boy up. "Mireia? are you okay?" he asked, still half asleep.

"yeah, just a nightmare... go back to sleep." she whispered back as she planted a chaste peck on his chin, nuzzling her head back into it's space.

the words she'd recently read on Twitter, and the words from the sasaeng at the airport, still haven't left her mind. do i really belong here? what will people think of me later on? did i actually just get my place in the group because i knew bangpd for so long? are they right?

NaRi hadn't noticed how much time had gone bye, now hearing some of the boys' tossing and turning. she leaned even more into Jay's embrace, eventually falling asleep.

"NaRi.."

"Kim.."

"cutie..."

her eyes abruptly opened, now seeing Jake directly in front of her. "good morning, cutie." he chuckled as he leaned down to place a kiss on her forehead.

"mm.. good morning." she whispered, sleep still heavy in her system. "it's a free day, why'd you wake me up so early?"

"well... we kinda wanted breakfast and Jay doesn't know how to cook it like you.." he nervously replied, hands going to scratch the back of his neck.

NaRi's eyes moved to the older boy, a 'really?' look painted on her face. "shim," she drew out, flipping back around. "please, NaRi?" he begged, moving to cuddle her.