♤The Ace of Spades♤

Why the Orange?

I glared at Tom. "You...did...what?" I was pissed. Beyond pissed. He lied to me! AGAIN! "I...I arrested your dad..." He spoke. My heart was racing fast now. "I have been looking for him for weeks, Tom! And you tell me now that you arrested him?!" Doug stood and Tom just sat there looking down. "I'm sorry...I..." "No!" I yelled. "Don't be fucking sorry! You arrested my dad! Now he's probably gonna go to the FBI where they'll put him in a penatentiary! Or God else!" Doug came over to me while I was in Tom's space. "Gemma...calm down." I turned around. "SHUT UP!" I yelled at him. I turned back to Tom. "I'm tired of guys treating me like I'm a goddamn trash back that cab be thrown out when it's full. I'm sick of this shit!" I grabbed my bag and left Doug's apartment.

I was so stupid. How could I do this to Gemma. I arrested her dad, the only person she ever had to look after her. I stood. "I'm gonna go home, Penhall." I was sad, nearly in tears actually. Doug nodded. "Bye, man. Sorry about-" I shook my head. "No...don't be." I left his apartment not even wanting to find Gemma. I walked downstairs into the lobby and left the building. Did I even want to drive? I sighed and got into my dad's old car. This was nearly too much for me to handle. I started the car and drove off. I needed time alone. Time alone to think about how much of a dumbass I was. It began to rain outside. Gemma loved the rain. It helped her sleep better...maybe... Just maybe...it'll help me sleep tonight.

I was in my room in my hideout. Ugh! If I didn't have this fucking kid inside of me I'd smoke weed. Or fucking drink my sorrows away. All I could do was think of mom in this situation. She was young when she had me. Sixteen and very much scared of the fact that she would have to raise me in a gang life. "Guess what mom..." I walked over to my picture of my mom and dad that I had hanging on the wall. My dad had his hands on her belly and he was smiling...but she wasn't. "I'm pregnant now, too. Fucking coincidence, huh? Well guess what you fucking whore?!" I yanked the picture and the thumbtack with it off the wall. "I didn't learn jack shit from you! I didn't fucking have you!"I threw the picture at...Ben?! My eyes got wide as my ex boyfriend stood in the doorway, dressed in all orange and guys with orange on too behind him. "Now baby you know you shouldn't be doing that..." He walked towards me, his shoes making thudding sounds as he walked on the floor. I was shaking. "B-Ben...wh-what are you..." "Shhh....no need for talking." He put a finger to my lips an the guys stood next to him on both sides. "Now that your dad is in jail...I can have you again....YOU FUCKING WHORE!" He slapped me and I fell to the ground hard. I gripped my cheek. "Ben, no!" I screamed. He grabbed me by the hair and pulled me back so his mouth was by my ear. "Fucking scream again and I'll slit your goddamn throat!" He put his knife that I got him to my throat. Wait...I got him that! For our one year! And he....sold it to a pawn shop. How did he get it back?! Ugh it didn't matter now. Tears were steraming...as they have been all day. "Please don't Ben! We can talk about this!" "Fucking kill her!" One of the guys said. I could feel him grin. "Or fucking beat the shit out of her, Ese!" I was shaking. I couldn't do anything else. "TOMMY!!! TOMMY!!!!" Then Ben shoved my head into the floor where everything whlent completely black.