♤The Ace of Spades♤

The Chapter...That May End it All.

I hear his heart in my sleep. I hear it echo in my ears when I wake up the next morning. I keep my head on his chest to hold him close to me. I could have lost him when he got shot. The doctor even said that it was two inches away from his heart. What if it hit his heart? I feel a tear glide across my nose and fall onto his chest. I decide that it was time to make him breakfast, so I stood up and took his shirt back. I put it on me and walked into the small kitchen that he had. His favorite food was chocolate chip waffles with a big ass glass of milk. As I was beginning to make him waffles I felt arms wrap around me slow. "Mmm, is that...waffles?" I nodded and giggled. "It is Tommy." I continued to cook for him and he unwrapped his arms from around me. "Hey baby? Have you seen my...never mind!" He called. I giggled. He was always so silly in the morning. After I made him four waffles and a glass a milk, I sat on the couch remembering what we did here last night. Fuck, it was so amazing, but there was something that Tom didn't know...and something that I wouldn't tell him. I may or may not have thought of Doug at some points. I don't know why but Doug's eyes just took me over yesterday and I couldn't seem to stop thinking about them. Yes Tom was good in bed, but...what was Doug like? I looked at Tom who was getting ready. "Baby come sit with me while I eat." Oh how stupid could I be? This guy made the most amazing love with me and I made him breakfast. I grabbed his arm sling and stood to give it to Tom. I sat beside him at the table. "Good morning, beautiful. I hope that you had a good time last night." He said in the most sexiest voice to imagine. I blushed and smiled. I felt guilty that I had thought about Doug while Tom was making love to me last night. I watched Tommy as he ate and after he ate I sat on his lap. "Would you like me to go to work with you today? I really want to help find Daddy." Tom's thumbs massaged my hips and I wrapped my arms around his neck. "I don't know, baby. You've been under stress lately. I don't want you to have a panic attack." Tom was always worrying about me having a panic attack which was sweet. I had always had an anxiety disorder since I was about fifteen and no one really helped me when I had one. Ben would help me and calm me down, but the problem was is that he didn't know how to cope with it when I had one. Now if I have one with Tom around, Tom would massage my sides to help relax my lungs that would lock up. He would coax me with the sweetest words imaginable and I would calm down and he would hold me close. "Look Gemma, maybe soon I will take you to work with me so that I can keep a close eye on you." I began to think of the Flamers and if they were to find me. "But baby what about the Flamers. You don't want me to end up in the hospital like you did, or end up dead do you?!" He held me close to him and we just held one another close. "No baby...you're right. You should come with me." I grinned and kissed him.

I walked into the Chapel with Tom and the first thing I saw was Doug sitting at his desk. I froze in my place, forgetting that Doug even worked with my boyfriend. Doug turned around and looked at me, a perfect smile spread on his face. He stood and walked around the desks to finally reach us. "Hi Hanson. Hey Gemma." He said and hugged me. He fucking hugged me right in front of my boyfriend! I hugged his broad shoulders back. Doug smelled really good and it was a cologne that didn't make my nose tingle. We separated and Tom scratched at his arm that was in the sling. "Doug, why don't you and Gemma go out and do some busts. Take her for a stroll, eh?" Tom said to his best friend. Doug nodded. "Yeah that sounds fun! Today I can take you out for pizza." My smile just grew wider and wider. It was like Doug knew all my favorite foods! 

I was in the vehicle with Doug now and we were heading to the pizzeria. I can't believe that Tom was letting me go out with his best friend that was a guy. None of my other boyfriends that I had wouldn'y even let me hang out with my own friends that were guys. It pissed me off actually. Thankfully Tom understood that Doug was just trying to be sweet and heknows that I am going through a rough time with my dad missing. "So you can't see the color red?" He asked. I nodded. "Nope. I can't see my own gang's colors. Messed up right?" Doug made the cutest giggle. "Yeah, yeah. Very messed up." I watched Doug as he continued to drive. I knew that Doug had no intentions of messing up the love that Tom and I had made between one another...or so I thought.

After Doug and I took me out for pizza, we were walking down a secluded alley that led to his parked vehicle. "The pizza was really nice." I told him. Doug had once again given me his jacket because I was cold. It made me feel safe. We were walking down and about to reach his car when suddenly he took me hand and turned me around to face him. It was like deja vu when Tom did it to me awhile back, but now it was Doug, Doug is my boyfriend's best friend. I looked up into Doug's eyes were I felt my knees grow a little weak. "Gemma...I need to tell you something. Please hear me out. This may sound crazy as hell and you might slap me and never talk to me again, but...I think I feel something for you, I don't know why, but when I look at you I just get this feeling in my belly that makes me glad that I have someone to talk to. I feel I can talk to you about anything and everything. I know that one day you and Tom will be togther and tie the knot and all this other stuff but I can't help but notice how beautiful you are. I can't help but think about you when we're not talking or in the same room together. This may not mean anything to you at all, but what I want to say to you is...I feel something for you..." I couldn't move...

Then he leaned down...

and kissed me.