♤The Ace of Spades♤

Confessions Aren't the Only Things That Get Spilled.

I sit on the sand, staring out at the ocean before me. Gazing, watching. Whatever you want to call it. It was dark, but the ocean's waves looked fluorescent in the moonlight. Tom was behind me and I was between his knees. We were close...real close, and I was hugging my knees. "This is where I like to get away..." Tom stated. "It's where I can just leave the world mentally...it makes me realize that there are better places to go when you need to relax." I smiled at his words. They sounded so true, so genuine. So...amazing.I leaned back into his chest. "Tom...were you ever confused on your...sexualitiy b-before?" I was so shy and scared to ask him that I swore I would embarrass myself. I turned my head and looked at him. "Well... You're a teen Gemma. A bunch of shit happens when you're this way. You think you're this way but in reality you don't know what the fuck you want." He was right. I was so confused on life. I needed mom. I needed a woman to guide me through this shit. If I told dad that I was kissing and thinking about liking girls then he would probably kick me out of the gang. As I said before that there was no homosexuality in the gang. Even if you were drunk and were caught making out with the same sex you could be either killed or banned from the gang completely. I was beginning to wonder if I was gay, but I liked Tom...A LOT. Suddenly, I felt fingers go through my hair and I smiled. I thought that maybe there would be just one guy I would want to date in that shitty ass school that it would be Mr. Tommy Parcello. I turned and attempted to give Tom a flirtatious smile. He looked down onto my lips and I was blushing. I could feel the warmth in my cheeks "I have never forgotten about the way you kissed me..." Tommy stated. I grinned and turned around to sit on his lap. God, was I being a slut right now? I needed to tell Kara that it was over. I needed to fucking do something so that I don't feel like a damned whore! Tom encircled his arms around me and I felt that that feeling I got when our lips met that one day. "There are things about me that I wish I could tell you." I looked at him puzzled and thought that there would be just one thing that could happen tonight. On this beach. But what was he hinding from me? Surely there was just one thing that he could be hiding from me. I just hope that he didn't like me because I could get him killed! It was my worst fear. I killed my mother and if I killed him I would probably kill me too. "What is it that you're hiding from me Tommy?" I questioned. He looked away and I took his smooth face in my hands. "You can tell me anything." We got really close to one another to where I can feel his breath on my neck. "I...I just...." I grew more and more anxious. He leaned forward and got close to my ear. "I really like you. For some reason I can't seem to get you off my mind since that kiss we shared at the party. The way we ground against one another was one of the best things I've felt since my last girlfriend. I feel as if I can tell you anything because as I said...I'm not the person you think I am." I felt his body heat mix with mine and I grew so excited. I looked at him and saw that there was just something that hit me right in the heart. I gazed at him and began to see that he was being completely honest. "I need to tell Kara that there is someone else...before we get together. Is there a way you can drive me to her house, Tommy?" He nodded and we got into his stang where he drove me to Kara's place.

Later, Tommy and I arrived at Kara's house. What was weird was that her parents weren't home and usually they are home. All the time to be exact. We walked up to the door and knocked. Tom stood beside me and I was really cold. I shouldn't have worn a half shirt tonight. The door never opened and I got worried. I looked at Tom and said, "Maybe we can check her window." He nodded and he walked me over to the gutters. "I'll climb up there, Gem." Tom began to climb the gutters and I was getting a good look at his ass. Damn! That's not imortant right now but fuck it was so perfect in his denim jeans. Anyways, I saw Tom walk onto the roof and I waited in the cold. It was a good five minutes before Tom came back and saw that there was obviously something wrong. "Can I come up?" I asked.

If you want to know what actually happened...Kara was dead in her room. Her wrists were slit and she had killed herself. I am skipping to this because I honestly can't remember what happened after there was so much gray and so much...sadness. To this day I still believe it is my fault that she died. I can't believe...that I kinda felt something for that innocent angel.

DJ: Hey Angels :) Here is the newest chapter of The Ace of Spades. I probably won't update again until after Christmas. PrincessTigerLillyxx, this is an early birthday present for you and I will send you the real one really soon. Anyways I hope that you especially will love this update because that means that you and Tommy will finally start getting together :) For the others, feel free to comment, vote, and add to your library. Thanks for reading and have a very Merry Christmas :D