As the best assassin in the Embassy yearning for another job to do, Lee Nari's newest mission caught her off guard: kill Kim Seokjin.
Killing a wealthy prince of a well known kingdom seemed pretty easy to Lee Nari. But with the prince's protector, J...
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ALONG the vast, dark ocean sat a long reflection of the bright, full moon. Nari took in a large whiff of the oceanic breeze. Shutting her eyes, she hugs her arms from the slight wind. Her lips gaped as she let out a breath in attempt to calm herself down.
She's never experienced the support of others when it came to things she usually would have had to deal with on her own. Now that she had that, she didn't know how to deal with it. The feelings of wanting to be independent all while wanting to open up, entangled with one another and Nari just didn't know what to do.
Any normal person would have accepted the fact that her friends were trying to help and understand her. But Nari was no normal person. She was a former assassin, trained her entire life to be alone.
But she wasn't alone anymore. Because of that, Nari felt mad at herself, for she felt like she pushed them away. Then again, she had every right to get frustrated with them.
Nari leans her arms against the balcony's ledge, staring at the endless ocean in the distance. Her mind wandered, thinking about her situation as she played with her fingers.
She sighed, rubbing her forearm subtly. No matter how much her friends wanted to understand her, Nari herself, felt impossible to understand. She knows they'll understand, but she was just so scared to tell them the truth.
Especially Jungkook.
Nari releases a shaky breath, hanging her head low as she shut her eyes. Her heart ached at the thought and her cowardice feelings rushed through her. Her body shook at the mere thought of telling him, she just couldn't do it.
The girl felt so guilty, like everything happening to her was her fault. It certainly felt like it was. Who else's fault would it have been? Nari felt like the biggest disappointment in Aloral.
Nari wondered if her boyfriend loved her enough to stay with her even after she tells him the truth. Her heart ached at the thought that he wouldn't; that she'd lose him again.
She covers her eyes upon feeling tears quickly prickle at the end of her eyes. Her attempts to wipe them away fail as they continue to spill. Nari's eyebrows furrowed in distaste as she cried, a faint sob escaping her lips.
She felt so sorry for all her friends simply because she knew she was letting everyone down. Why couldn't Nari just be normal like everyone else was? Why did she have to go through this? Why her?
Her breaths became harder and uneven. She shook as she cried, feeling angry at herself for being such an imperfect being. Jungkook deserved better. He deserved someone normal. Nari didn't deserve him. Not after everything she'd done in the past. Not after everything she'd offer in the future.
Or not offer, for that matter.
Nari hated her every being. With every minute she spent outside on this lone balcony at the tippy top of the castle, the more she began to get mad at herself for something she had zero control over.
These past five months, Nari had been working so hard on her self love, wanting to learn how to accept herself. It was hard to do so. How could Nari accept who she was after everything she'd done to the people she loved?
No matter how many times others tried to convince her it wasn't her fault, she still felt like it was. Her desire to kill Seokjin proved that. Her love for the Embassy, her loyalty to The Ambassador, her spiteful attitude toward Jungkook, it all proved that.
Gosh, she felt like a horrible person.
It didn't matter how much she had changed. The old Nari was still her. It was a part of her that could never be erased. She was bonded to her past forever, no matter how much she wanted to forget about it all.
So despite working on this said self love, it refused to work. It refused to.
Perhaps that was why Nari loved being in the embrace of Jungkook so much. At least with him, she felt loved enough to the point of actually wanting to love herself too.
She thought, if Jungkook could manage to love her so much... Maybe she could learn to love herself too?
Thinking about Jungkook makes the girl release a sigh as she shut her eyes. Her heart ached once more, thinking about how she just couldn't lose him.
Her heart would break into two if he turns her away. She'd be lost. She needed him which is why Nari debated so hard on whether or not she should tell him the truth.
He deserved to know, but would it really be worth it if he decides to leave her in the end?
KILL KIM
The Queen blinks, tilting her head in confusion as she stared at the sleeping boy on one of the castle benches in the long corridors. His arm draped over his eyes and his leg was bent, his knee facing up. "Jungkook?" She cautiously poked at his bicep, making him flinch awake.
Jungkook moves his arm from his gaze, the bright light of the large window beside him momentarily blinding him. "Your majesty." He lets out a tiny gasp, immediately standing up at the sight of her.
The Queen folds her arms across her. "What're you doing?" She questioned. Beside her, stood a guard as he kept to himself, watching the whole ordeal with the Queen and Jungkook.
Jungkook sighs deeply. "I... I was searching for Nari last night. I must've fallen asleep." He nervously chuckled, rubbing his neck as he instinctively stretched his arms.
The Queen looked at him, a look of pity in her eyes. "My, you look exhausted." She commented upon noticing his tired eyes.
The boy shook his head. "No worries. I'm not tired... Just worried." He tells her, hoping to ease her worries just a little bit.
The Queen nodded understandingly before sighing deeply. "I saw Nari heading to her chambers this morning. Perhaps you may try there?" She suggested, motioning for him to go.
Jungkook's big eyes sparkled with hope. "Oh, thank you, your majesty." He tells her, bowing once before leaving her and wishing her a good day.
The boy rushes to Nari's bedroom, passing a numerous amount of maids on the way as they walked the corridors.
Jungkook had been so worried for the longest time. Searching for a single person in this huge castle was not easy, and it certainly wasn't fun either.
Not only did he want to make sure his girlfriend was feeling okay, he was already a tad scared she'd leave again. Her lack of presence last night definitely didn't sit right with him, and he needed to see her again right away.
All the months they'd been apart, all the time Jungkook spent missing Nari, suddenly scared him as he wished to see her once more.
When Nari left five months ago, Jungkook's heart ached every single second of the day. Even when he was distracted by the thought, his heart still managed to ache. Nari was his happy pill and he didn't dare want to see his happy pill upset.
Without even knocking, Jungkook bursts into the girls bedroom. With his breaths hard, he eagerly looks around to room only to find it was completely empty; no girl in sight.
He curses under his breath upon noticing the dress she had worn yesterday was lying on the bed, signifying she was just here, but he had missed her by a heartbeat.
Jungkook glanced at the infamous clock on the wall only to notice it was ten minutes to noon. Immediately, he turns around, heading out the room and quickly rushing to his room, for he was scared to be late.
After all, he did have a sparring match to get to with the girl. And he did not plan on missing it.
