"There's barely enough time to love in a lifetime, please don't give it all away to pain," his words were gentle, yet slightly pleading as his hand trailed down my cheek.
"But what if the pain has already consumed me?"
- 18+
- Themes that may ups...
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
𝐌𝐲𝐆𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐭𝐨𝐘𝐨𝐮
NOVA
I had lied in bed for almost the whole day, doing nothing. I thought I would have woken up with yesterday's series of events blocked out - but that wasn't the case. The pain was still there, and it was always going to be there.
I guessed it was just a matter of time before it happened again. Every time I survived an episode like that, I was so grateful that I was still alive, but it never lasted for long. If I think about it, when I do finally pass on, I wouldn't have the chance to think about it like this though. I wouldn't be in this never-ending cycle. It'll just be peace, if that makes sense.
I couldn't lie though; I was looking forward to seeing Jimin later but a part of me also felt guilty. I had a boyfriend, a boyfriend who loved and cared about me enough to visit every day and yet the one day he doesn't visit me, I decide to go out with his best friend.
...Jimin did say it wasn't a date though.
Turning over, I tried to store up the energy to reach for my phone, which was conveniently locked in my drawer so I couldn't be tempted to ring for help yesterday.
As soon as it turned back on, my body sprung up as my home screen lit up with twenty missed calls and messages from Jungkook.
Oops! This image does not follow our content guidelines. To continue publishing, please remove it or upload a different image.
Kookie.
How could I do this to him, the man who distracted me from every bad thing in my life? The flirty boy who saved me from falling on my face on New Year's Eve. The person I loved.
I had already made plans with Jimin tonight but judging by the way Jungkook told me not to wear anything revealing on Yoongi's birthday, shows he's not exactly comfortable with me going out with him.
But I really wanted to go.
Jimin had saved my life. He sat with me all night as I cried, rocking me in his arms. He was my safe place now.
