"There's barely enough time to love in a lifetime, please don't give it all away to pain," his words were gentle, yet slightly pleading as his hand trailed down my cheek.
"But what if the pain has already consumed me?"
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𝐓𝐫𝐚𝐮𝐦𝐚
NOVA
It was 6am, and I hadn't slept all night.
Bundled up in the covers, I lay there with Jungkook nestled into my neck, fast asleep. I knew what was coming in the morning and a part of me wished I could sleep through it, but there was no way Jungkook would let me. It was only a matter of time before his alarm rang and he was ushering me out the door for my first appointment.
I promised him I'd try it out and he promised me that I could leave if I was uncomfortable... but how was I supposed to tell him I wasn't comfortable? I didn't want him to know about my past, I wanted a clean slate. The only reason I'd want to escape the confinements of those four office walls was because of what happened to me before.
I often thought that it would be way easier to tell him, but I knew JK, he saw me as a wounded bird. A wounded bird that he felt responsible for. It would kill him; it would rip him apart to find out.
My decision was best for him, I'd rather be the one suffering than him.
I was slowly deteriorating and losing myself even more. My eyes were heavy, my skin was dry, and my lips were cracked. These were all signs that I was weathering away. No one noticed though, the only person that saw what I had become was Auntie from the cafe. She pointed out my hollow cheeks and sunken eyes, yet Jungkook didn't say a word afterwards. I guess he thought I'd be fixed in a couple of days.
Who knows? Maybe this doctor would fix me.
Doubtful.
I laid there for a few more hours in a daze, before the rattling sound of Jungkook's alarm travelled through me and shook him awake.
"Oh my God Kookie! Can you change that! Who sets a baby crying in auto-tune as their alarm tone?" I sighed at the drooling man smacking his lips, his hair untidy and eyes droopy.
"If you change your alarm often, it encourages you to wake up. I read it somewhere," he grumbled, rubbing his eyes.
"You're a psychopath!"
"Yep, crazy as fuck for you," he cooed, ruffling my hair.
I fake vomited, cringing at his words and pulled the pillow over my head. "Eww, cheesy!"
"Ah shutup, you love it," he snickered, pulling himself out of bed and grabbing my legs.
I screamed as he yanked my ankles so hard that I was hanging off the end of the bed.
Things had been beyond good with JK lately, I was starting to see the same man I fell in love with again. It had been a whirlwind of a romance, and that's how things usually went down with me. Nothing was subtle, I always charged full speed into a relationship, that's how I ended up with Kai. He seemed sweet at the beginning because I didn't give him a chance to show his true colours.
