"There's barely enough time to love in a lifetime, please don't give it all away to pain," his words were gentle, yet slightly pleading as his hand trailed down my cheek.
"But what if the pain has already consumed me?"
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𝐔𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐢𝐥
NOVA
"As long as I'm around, you can never have your happily ever after."
My heart dropped in my stomach, leaving the most uncomfortable emptiness behind.
"What are you talking about? What do you mean?" I stuttered, panicking at his words. What did he mean he had to let me go? We had only just gotten close, this was ridiculous.
"It's simple, Princess," Jimin sighed, his hand trailing from my cheek to my chin, "it's the only way we'll both be happy. I can't be selfish with you, and if we keep seeing each other... I won't be able to fight it anymore." He turned his head to the side as if he was trying to hold himself back from giving in to something.
"You can fight it! I know you can Jimin, whatever it is!" I pleaded, fidgeting in my place. I felt like my chest was going to explode, I knew I enjoyed Jimin's company, but I didn't realise how much. It felt like something precious was being snatched away.
"You're with Jungkook, Nova? Answer me this; does he even know you're here right now? Or did you lie to him?" His eyes were soft and regretful as his question was answered by my reaction. I didn't even have a chance to make up an excuse. "I know you did, baby, and that's the problem. I'm not innocent in all this either, I brought you here because my selfishness took over."
I couldn't lie, I was sort of hurt by what he said but I knew he didn't mean it. "It wasn't selfishness," I snapped, gaining his attention, "you did this for me, to get me out of that hellhole that was swallowing me up. Don't ruin this Jimin, I'm so grateful for you."
"You'll end up getting hurt! I won't risk being the source of your pain anymore. I want you to be happy with JK and all the time I stay in the picture you can't have that." He shook his head in deep thought. "I didn't want this to be a sad goodbye..."
I didn't have it in me to burst into tears anymore, the last few weeks had been too exhausting for me. Actually, my whole life had been exhausting. My feelings for Jimin used to be so conflicting, one minute I would hate him and the next I would indulge in his company. I knew he brought out a darkness in me that I couldn't escape - it devoured my body - but the reason I couldn't ever fully remove him from my life was because he made me feel something. No matter how bad it felt, I always said it was better to feel something than nothing at all.
In some ways, the way I used to hate Jimin was stronger than any feelings I had for Jungkook. The hate consumed me. My aunt used to always say that there was a fine line between love and hate, maybe the feelings were being mixed up.
No, that's ridiculous.
I was well aware that what Jimin was telling me was true. When he was around, all hell would break loose and mine and Jungkook's relationship always suffered. It dated all the way back to when I let Jimin seduce me on the dance floor, then it happened again at Namjoon's business dinner when the thought of his body on mine brought me to climax instead of Jungkook. It had developed into something more than sexual tension now, but I couldn't quite put my finger on what the two of us had.
