"There's barely enough time to love in a lifetime, please don't give it all away to pain," his words were gentle, yet slightly pleading as his hand trailed down my cheek.
"But what if the pain has already consumed me?"
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𝐓𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐇𝐢𝐦
NOVA
"What am I doing?" I whined, pacing up and down my room with my phone in my hand. For the past couple of days, I'd been fighting with myself on whether or not to message Jimin. Since arriving home from the shopping trip with Jungkook, I was left feeling overwhelmed by the whole situation.
I kept thinking about my change of character once Jimin arrived. I'd been in the same room as Jimin and Jungkook before, but something was different this time. I could genuinely feel the difference in myself around the two of them.
Staring down at my phone, with the number Jimin left me in my other hand, I was trying to decide what was the right decision. Jimin and I had created a solid friendship, he had told me his deepest darkest secrets and helped me through mine. There was a trust we put in each other that was like no other.
I read over what he wrote for the five hundredth time, my heart warming at his words.
'Here's my number Princess.
I keep forgetting to ask for yours,
but feel free to message me whenever you need me.'
I did need him right now. I needed that confidence he installed in me, I needed him to tell me that I made the right decision giving into Jungkook... Even though he knew what I wanted deep down.
"Screw it," I let out, throwing myself on my bed. I typed the number into my phone and began to write the message I'd been preparing for the forty-eight hours.
Me: Hi... It's Nova. How are you?
"What the fuck I can't write that. Who the hell writes that as a first message? A freakin grandmother?" I scolded myself, dropping my head into the pillow. This shouldn't even be hard, he's my friend. Who gets nervous about texting their friends?
He's not just your friend. The little voice piped up in my head.
"What do you mean he's not my friend, he's a really good friend?" I snapped back, wondering why the voices were popping up now.
You don't deserve Jungkook. Jungkook loves you and here you are messaging another guy.
"I know Jungkook loves me. He still cheated on me though. Besides, Jimin and I are just friends." I was so tired of everyone justifying his actions. "Just shut up for once."
The voice died out and I continued looking down at my phone, trying to create a chill message that didn't look too weird or too staged.
Me: Hey Jimin... It's Nova.
Thank you for encouraging me to get the red dress. I've ended up with the black but that's okay, it will make Jungkook happy. He loves me in black and I feel comfortable in it.
