"There's barely enough time to love in a lifetime, please don't give it all away to pain," his words were gentle, yet slightly pleading as his hand trailed down my cheek.
"But what if the pain has already consumed me?"
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𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐅𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐌𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐬
JIMIM Flashback
My heart was broken into a million tiny pieces, a feeling I didn't know I was capable of again after my brother's death. I thought I was broken for the rest of my existence, condemned to live in this hell, but then she came along with her golden aura and beautiful smile. She changed my life.
She turned my world the right way around, made me fall for her only to go and break me again.
I wish it would all go away because the pain was excruciating.
Every time I started to feel better, my heart would shatter again. It broke because I knew there was nothing I could do. She was gone, gone for good, without a trace that she was even here in the first place.
I think the worst part was finding out she left because of me. Why wouldn't she speak to me first? Why wouldn't she explain everything instead of getting up and leaving without telling anyone? I guess I never truly knew her at all because this didn't seem like her. This didn't seem like the Nova I got to know. The Nova I fell in lo-
Why can't I say it?
I suppose I finally realised what it meant. I felt it with my entire being so why couldn't I just say it? Why didn't I tell her before it was too late?
I've been in this room for weeks now, just staring out of the window at the rain. I hope somewhere she's watching it as well; it's the only thing stopping me from ending it all.
Jungkook's just as bad. Although I hated him, he's still my brother and hearing about him struggling tortures me even more. She truly loved him, and he loves her. He just wasn't good for her and I think he realises that now. He would have never understood her and been what she needs.
That's why I'm so ruined. I never thought I would ever settle down; I didn't think it was ever going to be possible for me to care about someone so much that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with them. But I want to spend the rest of my life with her, I've never been so sure about anything. She made me a better person... She taught me how to feel again.
Please come back to me, baby. Please. I would give up my life to watch you waltz through that elevator door one last time.
Please come back.
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June 12th, 2021
Dear Princess,
I've decided to start writing you these letters, it's more to help me heal since I know you'll probably never read these.
It's been a week since you left and every day it's getting harder and harder to breathe. I'm so sorry about what happened at the fundraiser with JK and me. I wish it didn't end like that; I wish I could have whisked you away.
