the book of whimsy ✓

i'm drowning

oop here's a depressing poem for you :)

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i'm

suffering

i feel like

every

damn

breath

is a struggle

and it

hurts

physically

when i

dig my fingers

into my

hands

to find just

one moment

of

blissful escape

it hurts

mentally

that i'm not

whole

enough to

fix myself

or that i'm not

strong

enough

to have not

broken

in the first

place

it hurts

emotionally

that i don't

have anyone

to share

with

and that all

of this

is bottled up

inside

my

heart

i can't

keep filling

the bottle with

more

the liquid will

overflow

and the

cap

can't

close

it hurts

too much

and i think about

all the people

i know

who have

sliced their skin

and i don't

want to be them

i don't

want to hurt people

the way they did

by hurting themselves

i just want this

pain

to end

i can't keep

telling myself

to breathe

i can't keep

crying myself

to sleep

i can't do it

i want to scream

but my lungs

are out of

air

i'm underwater

and it feels like

i'm drowning