the book of whimsy ✓

fucked up

uhh,,, um.... so- i kind of swear in this one a little bit :0

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i think that i

fucked up

i seem to always be

doing that

though

you should

know me well enough

to know that

by now

but maybe you

weren't paying

attention

to my words

the way i was

paying attention

to yours

maybe you didn't

care

there wasn't any

reason

to care

because i was just

another

hurting

girl

who wanted you to

love her

but you didn't

i don't blame you

i don't

love me

either

but i do

love you

i think that i

fucked up

i'm not even sure

how

maybe my

pettiness

got the best of me

that one day

i know you know

what i'm

talking about

or maybe you don't

because i cared

so deeply

about you

slipping

away

from

me

but you didn't

seem to

give a fuck

even

if i

disappeared

i think that i

fucked up

but that doesn't mean

i stopped loving you

it only means

that i lost control

for a second

why can't i

lose control

and not

lose people

i'm not good at