the book of whimsy ✓

suffocation

super short, so i'll double post! i wrote this because i was spamming one of my friends and my texted musings turned kind of poetic :0

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i feel

suffocated

and everyone says it

gets better

but how will it get better

if i'm out of air

and my face turns

blue

and white

and all the

shades of the rainbow

that i pretended to be

even when i was

dull grays

and pale shades

of

sad blue

i'm six feet under

buried alive

i can taste the dirt

i want to be

in

the dirt

but i don't want to

be able to taste it

when i am

if i give up and let the

lack of oxygen

drive my

demons

away

and let my

pain

float off

on the angel wings

i discarded

when i exchanged

self love

for

scars

if that happens

will anyone notice

or will they realize

that i wasn't really alive

in the first place

— there's no use mourning a soul

that's already gone.