the book of whimsy ✓

words are my sunday confessional

this one's a bit disjointed, but it's from the heart <3 (btw, the book i'm talking about is oliver loves carson hehe i loved it sm) tysm for 1k reads on this book! crazy thankful :)

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so i was reading this book

and it was

stupidly good

in the way that only

sad

queer

romances

can be

and there was this

line

where

the feisty and sarcastic

oliver laurent

said that

he was not good enough

and there was this

line

where

the kind and good-natured

carson katsaros

said that

you aren't supposed to

feel like that

it broke my heart

i'm not even sure

why

but i'm sitting here

trying to

hold back tears

because i don't

know

what to do

i don't know how to

not cry

and hold it in

because i have a

goddamned

interview

i have to be at

in ten minutes

and they'll

know

if my voice is

wavery

and my eyes are

red

that i've been

hurting

why do i care so much

if people know

i'm hurting?

i read love stories

because i want love

but it always

escapes me

what's

wrong

with

me

i close my eyes

for a brief respite

but i'm

haunted

by everything

i was

and everything