Still ANYTHING for me? ~Seth Clearwater Love Story~

I really don't know. (28)

--My POV-- 

The next thing I knew, I felt things run through my body, tension, happiness, butterflies, fireworks, fear, passion, and love. Seth pressed his lips on mines. His hands were holding on both sides of my face cheeks, forcing my face on his. There was a side of me wanting to pull away, but the other side wanted to kiss back. It’s been a year and a half since the last time I kissed him. I started to kiss back and dropped the heels to the floor. I immediately grabbed his cardigan and gripped it. We stood there, kissing passionately until I felt this feeling in my stomach, regret. I immediately pulled away and looked down. The kiss, it felt great, but it felt wrong at the same time. I felt his eyes on me, while I was squeezing my eyes shut while biting the bottom of my lip. He took a step forward towards and, and I slowly backed away as tears kept coming down. I looked up, and saw him frozen in his place as I kept backing up.

Seth: Kaya,

Me: Seth, I’m, I’m really sorry, I just,

With that, I turned around and ran towards Sam’s house. I can feel his heart break, a million times because of what I just did. I ran into the house, and straight upstairs. While running up the stairs, Emily was at the bottom, ‘Kaya, what’s wrong sweetie?’ I turned around with tears running down my face, and just mouthed, I’m sorry. I went straight to my room and landed on my bed. Crying tonight wouldn’t be a problem because Koda was spending the night with my mom, Kiona and Kola. Emily kept knocking on my door, but I just lied there, thinking about why I did what I did. Seth’s face popped in my head, and it made me think a lot harder. Did I mean what I did, or did I just panic? Soon, my eyes started to get heavier and heavier and fell into a deep sleep.

---Seth’s POV---

I stood there frozen, for at least 15 minutes. I kissed her, and it felt like old times again. It felt amazing. It felt warming, and passionate. Why did she run away then? Why was she crying? Why can’t she just accept me again? I picked up her heels, and walked towards Sam’s house. It felt like she broke my heart all over again. She just backed away, without saying anything. She kissed me back though, that means something right? Once I reached Sam’s house, I walked inside and found everyone already back from the dance. I looked up with my eyes red and puffy. Emily stood up and walked towards me,

Emily: Seth, what did you do?

Me: I, I honestly really do not know.

Emily: why are you here then? Just go home please.

Me: I came to bring back her heels.

Emily: I don’t think you should go up there. She won’t let anyone in.

Me: Here, give those to her for me please.

Emily: Seth, I’m

Me: I just want to know what I did wrong. I guess I’ll see you guys tomorrow.

I walked out and went straight home. I refused to let any tears fall from my eyes. When I went home, I went into my room and started to replay the whole night over and over again. For some reason, I started to get mad, and started punching my wall. By the end of the night, holes were all over my room. By then, tears were already streaming down my face. I decided to just go for a run. I jumped out my window and phased. No one was phased in so I started rethinking everything. The more I started to think, the more I angry I got, and the faster I ran. I have been running for hours, or so it felt like. When I stopped, I was already at the Canadian boarder line. I phased back, and slumped on a tree. I sat there, and started to cry in my hands. It was still dark out, and I decided to go back home. Once I got home, I knocked out on my bed. I woke up at noon and thank goodness no one decided to interrupt me in my sleep. I got up and walked back to Sam’s house. Everyone was already there, eating lunch. I sat down in my usual place in the kitchen. Koda was still at Mai’s house and they said Kaya was still upstairs sleeping. I let out a big sigh and just started to eat...