Still ANYTHING for me? ~Seth Clearwater Love Story~

Regret. (30)

--My POV-- 

I sat at the log to think for a second, then I decided to head back to Sam’s. Everyone, almost everyone, was in the living room watching TV. I didn’t look up to see who was in the kitchen, but I knew I saw a figure at Seth’s seat. I walked behind him and tapped his shoulders, turned around, and walked outside. I heard him get up and follow me until I got to the beach. I sat down on the sand, and he sat next to me, staring at me, while I stare at the ocean. I let out a big sigh, 

Seth: Kaya, if you’re just going to do something that’ll break my heart again, I rather save you the trouble, and leave.

Me: Seth, I’m sorry.

Seth: Sorry about the kiss?

Me: for running away after the kiss.

Seth: Why did you do it? Why did you run away?

Me: I didn’t know then, and I still don’t know. 

Seth: so you just ran away forcefully?

Me: Seth, that kiss meant something to me. It meant a lot. It was amazing.

Seth: I know. *Smiles *

Me: but, there was a feeling in my stomach that didn’t feel right while we were kissing.

Seth: which was?

Me: regret.

Seth: but you just said the kiss was amazing.

Me: but it also had regret in it. Like kissing you didn’t feel right anymore.

Seth: what are you trying to say? What do you think we should do to fix it? What do you want?

Me: I don’t know what I’m trying to say, but I do know, I don’t think I want an US right now.

Seth: is that what you really want?

Me: yes.

He stands up, let’s out a big puff, ‘you’re going to regret saying that Qahla.’ With that, he left. I squeezed my eyes shut, and whispered to myself, ‘I know.’ I stood up and phased. I ran to the Hunt residence. I couldn’t be near Seth for a while because he’d make me feel horrible for making him feel like that. So I decided I’ll just sleep there for a couple of days, then go back to Sam’s when I’m ready. I just want everything to be right...