Gedichtesammlung~♡

Society watched me die. Society committed a murder.

Is there anybody out there?

Anybody that can understand?

How I feel and why?

Why I feel like dying?

Why I force myself to smile?

Every goddamn day, I wake up and say hi,

To these lucky people out there who don't feel like crying,

But I lie to their faces cause I'd rather say bye.

I lie and keep smiling,

They just see the surface of who I am, keep calling me darling,

Is your life going well? Is everything alright?

I nod and walk by, glad they don't hear my quiet sigh.

Or decide to ignore it.

Cause why making the effort?

To look me in the eyes, eyes filled with death, eyes killed by my wit.

They expect me to fly high. Excuse me what? Don't you see my teared out wings? I'm a rotten bird.

Questions start flooding my ears.

How I envision my future? I see myself embracing a knife.

To celebrate this disgusting life,

I wanna raise my glass filled with poison and yell cheers.

Smiling brightly at your indifferent gazes.

Spitting out blood in your faces.

Now you finally notice my misery?

Took you long enough to see.

I guess I couldn't keep up with your high expectations.

Your vision of living a fulfilled life is just too ancient.

I kept breathing in the dust.

No wonder I couldn't hide the feeling of disgust.

For this society of unbothered monsters.

A society of darwinism. Is this the new life rythm?

People who can't adapt themselves end up becoming murderers?

Is there any device helping us to get used to pain? Any other than creating your own rain?

You might see, I have a lot of questions.

But don't worry, I won't ask them out loud.

It's not that I wouldn't like to scream them out.

It's just that society pretends to be deaf.

Muted voices like mine don't get the chance to explain their sorrow. Society tells them to leave.