Sincerely, The girl who left words Unsaid

Author's Word

Now that I have completed posting 10 chapters over here I cannot express how amazing it feels. I cannot tell you how making amends with the fact that the story is done in my head because in my heart I felt that the story is so perfect and probably the only story that I will ever write and the idea of screwing up the ending had never allowed me to actually write for last five years.

I am overwhelmed with few readers who took the time to reach out to me and give compliments to what I have written. What even excites me further is that they had questions and they were curious about what was happening.

Some of those questions I would love to answer.

What is the meaning of those letters?

I realized one thing when I read what I had written that even though the perspective is of some individual who in reality may or may not have witnessed everything that happened somehow had already made up his mind about who was right and who was wrong.

As you may have seen it's all about what Shane felt and what he thought and it gives you a fair idea happening in his mind maybe what was in his art But very difficult to know what Jenny felt.

These letters I hope will give you a sense of how amazing she was, what she felt what she thought, and how honest she was all along.

The second question which was asked by those readers who knew me personally. 

What I actually hope would be an outcome of all these things?

 Initially, when I came up with this idea I thought that I want to write down a story about 'Jenny' as a character who symbolizes hope, a person who had so many things going on in her life, having a story of her own but no outlet or no idea how to be heard.

I thought that as a writer it would be easy to express what my story was but if I wrote down her story and share it with the world for the world to admire her only then I'll be able to do justice to what writing actually meant to me.

I clearly failed to safeguard a relation that mattered to me once upon a time, a very long time. I tried to convince myself that it's not over. And in that process, I disallowed myself to complete the story because I believed that this story is that relation.

Someone extremely beautiful, humble, sweet, caring, charming, polite and way smarter than me gave me a piece of advice that sometimes you can't force the page to turn when it's time for you to shut the book.

I know one thing for sure that if I do not finish this book this time then I might not be able to finish this book ever and then the whole idea of writing would cease to exist for me.

I would be lying if I do not hope that these words reverse time for some Shane and for some Jenny who might be reading this and if it's not possible than at least they remember their bond with someone they now used to know and first smile reliving things in the end and then either Let themselves free or dare to bet on those memories.

The biggest risk and the worse consequence that I procrastinated would be a possible outcome of me writing this has already begun. Sometimes redeeming an old relation is always at the cost of an existing relationship and it seems that the wheels of the downfall already set to motion. It's again an overthought fear that I have but truth be told, it's this relation that supported me to write down as honestly as I could.