Dear Jenny,
I don't know if it's the right thing for me to say but I have learned one thing in life not to think when saying stuff that is bothering me because 99.87922% of times they are right. I actually calculated but don't ask me how I did it.
I often miss your voice but you talk so less which I hate (make a list it's one of those few things I hate) and am tired of waiting and hoping to meet you. I really detest the whole idea of you going on the trip already. I m happy we got to talk on the phone, sort of talk. Our conversations when in middle I hear you laughing or smiling. How I heard smiling is something I will explain later.
I swear I wish I could teleport and be there to just look and admire you.
It's true, I am actually feeling like whether you are real or not. It's true maybe your cold storm burying me alive. Memories are so less. I wish we could spend more time. Sometimes I feel we in a long-distance friendship if not in a relationship(I told Benjamin this line because it sounded so cool but he was like you are in a long-distance fantasy world waiting for her)
I just wish to walk with you for hours and talk, not in the traffic of this city but somewhere where I will be in a fix whether it's you who is more beautiful or the view. I really wonder how would it be like if we sat beside and experience an amazing moment together? Am I being highly optimistic? Fine, let's settle for a movie together? I am certainly hoping you like caramel popcorn because if not then that would be on the list of more than 10 things I hate about you.
Enough of me, let's talk about you. Who are you? I am trying to write down things about your character I wonder what should I say. I came up with this -
The girl who does small things for a friend
when she herself is upset
just to make her best friends birthday special
she does make an extra effort
the girl who wants to be heard
but cannot understand herself
doesn't trust easily
doesn't open easily
who is afraid of the false glitter
the staring eyes
and cries
softly in the church when everyone's heads are bowed
the girl who dances
but stops when a fool walks in the room
the girl who get high on music
likes to laugh and is over photogenic
but will say no to the camera and refuse to smile when asked to
the girl who does what her heart wants
but is a fool to let heart decide whether she should or not
who has 'no' on her lips
who has silence in her voice
an ache behind her smile
the girl who is a fat ass liar
she is honest but doesn't let it out
that's lying too by the way
place her in a situation she will act numb and stiff
go into another room and cry
come out with a big smile
when things cease to matter
she will break down then and say it mattered
she is beautiful
she is someone who has my heart
yet worried about the one in the cage
that cage will break lose
cause she is unlucky
she has a storyteller who broke in
her house with no light and rust on walls
where she has been alone
for far too long
the guy is a fool, dressed in black with his own scars to prove
places a glass on her palm
boom, he vanishes, cause he is meant
the glass reflects light and that's not where the black resides
he is a mirage
and that girl whose face is in the mirror
She is made to be loved, made to care for, she is a fool, its true
Well, I think I have done enough complimenting for a long time to pass. So, don't expect me to be the good guy.
Yours,
Shane
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