𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚜𝚝| 𝙹𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗

..[7]..

That night jeongin went home. He refused to let Chan walk him home since he knew that his parents would be waiting at the door for him.

He trudged up to his room and laid down on his bed, not bothering to change. He was too deep in thought. He was rolling in the guilt that hung over him like a long black veil.

He sinned.

He was a dirty rotten sinner.

That moment was when he began to cry

He lay on his bed in tears denying the true reality that he was terrible. He was a terrible person and that was facts.

Jeongin had lived all his life believing that he would live by the church and keep his religion his main priority.

But now it was all ruined.

His body rocked with cries of despair. He was heartbroken.

Jeongin was someone who thought too little and loved too much.

Obviously he was not in love with Chan but he was in some way or another attracted to the male.

Ding...

Jeongins phone went off with a message.

xxx-xxx-xxxx

Did you make it home?

Jeongin sighed looking at his screen. It was the very boy he was crying over. He'd made jeongin give him his number so he could make sure he made it home okay.

xxx-xxx-xxxx

Did you make it home?

Jeonginnie

Yeah, I did

A few more tears rolled down jeongins cheeks as he typed it out. He was devastated.

xxx-xxx-xxxx

When can I see you again?

Jeonginnie

I don't know, Chan.
I'm busy with the church tomorrow...

Chan-hyung

When does it end?

Jeonginnie

It just depends
I have youth group as well
I don't think we can hang out tomorrow

Chan-hyung

Maybe the next day then?

Right as he went to type a reply, jeongins phone began ringing with a call from jisung.

"H-hello?"

"Jeongin? Are you crying?' Jisung voice sounded scared for his friend.

" No..?"

"I've been your friend for 4 years. You can't lie to me. What happened?"

"I.. I-i think I might be gay" Jeongins voice was heartbreaking but nonetheless jisung began to laugh.

"Is this about minhos friend?"

"W-who?"

"Minhos blonde friend"

"Channie hyung... Yeah"

"Jeongin, it's been one day you probably need some time to really figure out your feelings... Besides, you don't have to be gay to like Chan"

Jisung had decided his sexuality ages ago. He was completely gay and he didn't care what the church said or did. His parents knew and were very supportive of him, letting him go on dates with boys and such.

"B-but doesn't it make me a terrible person?"

"No, angel! You shouldn't ever think that! Sexuality has nothing to do with what kind of person you are."

"But what if my parents don't like Chan or they kick me out?"

"Baby listen. You dont have to decide anything now or ever if you don't want to. It's one hundred percent up to you and if you decide that you are gay or bisexual or straight, I will be your best friend like I always am"

The line went quiet

"I love you sungie.. " Jeongin breathed out

"I love you too, innie"

Another moment of silence

"So Minho seems nice"

"He really is, jeongin. I think I could really like him if I got to know him. "

"I think he'd be good for you... "

"I think so too... "

"Sungie, guess what?!"

"What?"

"I tried coke!" Jeongin whispered in to the phone in case his parents were listening.

A gasp sounded from the other side

"Did you like it? When I first tried it, I was bouncing off the walls"

"I really liked it, Chan let me have two"

"So is Chan your coke dealer now?" Jisung giggled through the phone.

"Quite possibly...?"

Jisungs little giggle came through the phone again.

"Oh, sungie! I wanted to ask you something"

He hummed in response

"Have you ever had a boner?"

The way jeongin said it was so straight forward and jisung began laughing loudly through the phone.

"Who taught this to my baby?" He giggled out

"Hyunggg~ have you?"

"Yes but only a few times" He said still softly chuckling

"What does it feel like?"

A moment of silence passed

"Jeongin ask this to Chan he probably can tell you a lot more than I will"

"Ugh fineee... I'm gonna go to bed before my mom comes and yells"

"Okay goodnight In-ah"

"Night sungie"

Jeongin hung up and saw the message from Chan once again

Chan-hyung

Maybe another day then?

Jeonginnie

I'm free on Saturday

Chan-hyung

Sounds good. I'll pick you up.
Seen at 9:42 PM

That night as the boy fell asleep he prayed for forgiveness and told God he was sorry for giving into temptations.

In the beginning it seemed like this was the devil testing him. But after everything with Chan he thought that Chan was maybe meant to be a good thing.

But of course, he fell asleep thinking of a certain blonde boy that somehow ran circles in his mind, making jeongins heart race slightly. His simple smile, his kind eyes. Everything about Chan was perfect.

Perhaps jeongin really was someone who fell quickly and loved intensely. Perhaps he maybe kind of sort of had a crush on Chan already... But is that so bad?

Whatever you do don't hurt me, channie...