𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚜𝚝| 𝙹𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚐𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚗

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Just for clarification this is a flashback regarding seungmin and jeongins relationship.
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Jeongin lay on the floor in his room, sighing at how hot it was in the room it was the middle of summer, the heat pouring through the windows even though they were closed.

The creaky floor squeaking as seungmin walked back into the room, laying back down beside his friend with a hot bowl of popcorn.

"It's hot up here, minnie... " Jeongin whined taking some popcorn from the bowl and eating it loudly.

"I'll turn the fan on" Seungmin got up and flipped the fan on so it blew on them after chuckling. The room was filled with a comfortable silence as they lay beside each other.

After laying back down, he snuggled his face into the youngers neck and hugged him gently. He rubbed his hand up and down the youngers back and sighed, breathing in his soft scent. Jeongin hugged him back tightly, loving seungmin cuddles but this time it hurt. Not physically but emotionally.

It was something jeongin felt often, not understanding that this was love. That he liked his best friend.

"Ow.. " Jeongin muttered, slightly pushing seungmin away from him.

The older pulled back to look at his friends pained expression.

"What's wrong, innie?"

He paused for a minute, seeking the right words before settling on

"It hurts," In a choked up voice.

"What hurts? We can move to your bed if you want so it doesn't hurt your back" He offered.

"No," Tears welled in jeongins eyes as he grabbed seungmins hand, holding it close to his body "My heart hurts..."

A tear slipped out of the youngers eye, slipping across the bridge of his nose making him sniffle. His glassy eyes stared seungmin down as if to say "you're the reason I'm hurting" His brow was knit together and his lips quivered before letting out the most heartbreaking sob.

Every word was said with his tears. They were some that they'd both held in for so long, often sharing sad glances at each other when they saw couples together. His crying said everything and nothing at the same time as the fat tears rolled down his cheeks.

Seungmin understood. He understood jeongins feelings because he felt the same.

They loved each other.

They had for a while, both never quite saying it out loud. It had all started out as being best friends. It had been like that from the beginning. Jeongin never believed in love at first sight until he saw seungmin. It changed something in him. Made him want to cry, love, hate, and be happy for seungmin. He wanted everything with the boy. He wanted to make it with him, do everything together.

"Don't cry, innie" Seungmin soothed, tearing up himself.

They both knew. They knew that it would never work. Jeongins parents would never allow it and it would get too hard to keep the secret.

"I love you" Jeongin cried out, gasping for breaths after each painful sob.

"I love you too," Seungmin whispered back to jeongin, closing his eyes to hold in his tears so they didn't fall. He had to be strong. He had to do it for jeongin.