Addicted to you // Steve Rogers

Chapter 21

"Can i have all your attentions" My father says and we all look over at him "Since we have our Penny back to normal I think we should throw her a party" My father says and I smile "She does love a party" Steve says and I nod "I do" I say still smiling "So it's settled party at 8. I hope to see you all there, not like we have any other place to be" My father jokes and we all laugh "When are you two going to tell him?" Natasha asks "I don't know" I whisper "He gave me a single rule when I joined Nat, and i broke it in less than a month" I say "He's going to kill me, or Steve" I say and Natasha laughs 

"How long has it even been going on for?" Natasha asks "Well we stopped when he was with Sharon for that month but not counting that we have been doing it since the day he arrived from that mission, you arrived the next day" I say "It's been like three months?" Natasha asks "Two cutting out the Sharon month" I say "So you have been hooking up in secret for two months and not even I knew?" Natasha asks "Nobody knew, I thought you were going to freak out" I say as we walk out of the dinning room together and into the balcony "I was trying to hook him up with several girls, I was the one to push him and Sharon together" Natasha says and I shrug

"I didn't know how i felt back then" I say "The decision to keep this so secret was mine" I admit "I never wanted anything serious and i sure  as hell never expected to start falling for him" I say and her eyes widen "What did i say?" I ask "You're falling for him?" Natasha asks and i look away "I don't know, I don't think i have ever felt like this before. Not even with Theo and he was my first everything" I say "I am confused and i don't understand what exactly I'm feeling" I say resting my head on my hands "I'm so confused" I say "You loved him, just admit it" Natasha says "I told him i never wanted to go official because i didn't want to be the one to hurt him" I say

"I am not stable mentally to understand feeling this way, i lash out when i mad, the earth beneath me shakes uncontrollably when I argue with someone" I say "You're making excuses because you don't want to be hurt again" Natasha says and i look at her "You don't want to go through the pain that Theo put you through again, so you are making excuses for why Steve would never really love you. Steve has as little experience in love as you have. Him and Sharon didn't even sleep in the same bed when she slept here, he would sleep on the floor" Natasha says and i frown 

"The only other love he's had was Peggy, who he already lost. If you think he's not as scared as you are about admitting this than you are stupid" Natasha says and i laugh "So you think he loves me too?" I ask "I find it impossible for him not to" Natasha says "I see the way he looks at you and i see the way you look at him" Natasha says and I sigh "Maybe your right" I say and she smiles 

Party

I wear a long baby blue satin off the shoulders dress with a slit that comes up to my thigh paired with some white pump heels. I straighten my hair and add light makeup *Knock knock* "Come on in" I say adjusting my dress "You look beautiful" Steve says and i smile "You look great" I reply walking over to him and linking arms "I will take great pleasure in taking that dress off you at the end of the night" Steve whispers and i feel my cheeks flush 

"Everyone else is here" I say letting go of Steve's arm "Still worried about your father huh" Steve says "You know what" I say and grab his hand intertwining our fingers "He's just going to have to deal with it" I say "Who's going to have to deal with what?" My father asks and i instantly let go of Steve's hand "Well that's a very good question dad" I say awkwardly, Steve look down at me and walks away silently "Damn it" I say as i watch Steve sit down at the bar "Everything okay?" My father asks and i nod "Yes" I say "Pepper" My father says looking behind me 

"I saw it" Pepper says to me and nods towards Steve "Go" Pepper says and i smile "Thank you" I say beginning to walk over to Steve just to see Sharon sitting next to him "I miss you" She says grabbing onto his hand "Too bad he doesn't miss you" I speak up, she turns to look at me "What makes you so sure?" She asks and i laugh "Him moaning my name was enough to know" I snap, Steve's eyes widen "H-he's with you?" Sharon asks "Every night" I say with a smirk "So you can get going now" I say, she looks at me for a few seconds before walking away

"You get jealous after the little stunt you just pulled?" Steve asks annoyed "Steve i am sorry. I'm scared of what my dad may think of it" I say "Is that it or are you just shamed of being with me?" Steve says getting up "Steve wait" I say and he ignores me, i look around and see the stage where the DJ is. I run to it and grab the mic, i take his laptop and play an instrumental version of 'No one by Alicia Keys'. My hands shaking at how stupid i am about to make myself look in front of everyone

I begin to sing "I know some people search the world. To find something like what we have. I know people will try, try to divide something so real. So 'til the end of time, I'm telling you there ain't no one. No one, no one. Can get in the way of what I'm feeling. No one, no one, no one. Can get in the way of what I feel for you" I sing ending the song, all eyes were on me "Tony you gave me one rule when i joined" I say calling my father by his first name to avoid any extra media putting this out there

"And i am sorry, but i can't help it. I tried to but i couldn't" I say searching the crowd until my eyes fid Steve "I love him and I can't let this just slip through my fingers" I say, my dad is frowning as Steve gets up onto the stage and kisses me. Everyone gasps "You love me?" Steve asks and i nod "I do" I admit