Addicted to you // Steve Rogers

Chapter 42

"Where did you go?" I ask confused "I went to your house to get some things for you"Steve says and I nod"How are you feeling?" Steve asks and I look up at him as he brings me breakfast "I will be fine" I say with a shrug "I know you will" Steve says with a small smile while joining me on the bed "do you really think he's up there somewhere? It's been over 20 days now" I ask taking a bite out of the sandwich

"I do" Steve says "and Peter?" I ask "I hope so" Steve says and I look away "Steve this hole thing it's just, it's too much" I say putting my sandwich back down "I know" Steve says and I look into his eyes, remembering out first dance "you know what? I have a little idea that will cheer you up" Steve says and I frown, he gets up and begins to go through my wardrobe "what are you doing?" I ask confused as he takes out the dress I wore the first time we danced when not father announced that I joined the avengers

"Put this on and meet me in the party room in 30 minutes" Steve says "Steve" I say shaking my head "just do it" he says and I sigh but nod, he leaves the room and I get up. I brush my teeth and put the dress on, I look at myself in the mirror noticing how bad my dark circles have gotten from the lack of sleep and the crying

I walk to the party room bare feet "you look just as beautiful as you did that night" Steve says wearing the suit he wore "as do you" I say with a small smile, he points the remote to the speaker and 'no one by Alicia keys' starts playing, I let out a small laugh "really funny" I say as Steve walks over to me and puts his hand out "I thought it was beautiful" Steve says pulling me into him and leading me in a slow dance

"I know you're suffering too Steve" I say looking up as we sway around the party room slowly "I am, but you are more. You lost more" Steve says "my pain matters as much as yours" I say "and we are in this together" Steve says and I look up into his eyes "you're not doing this "Steve says and I look away "I'm not good for you right now Steve" I say letting go of him

"You will always be good for me, you lost half your family in this battle. We both have Nellie, this is even more reason for us to stay together" Steve says and I sigh "I just need some space" I say "space?" Steve asks "you're scared" Steve says and I stay quiet "you don't want to get attached to me in fear that I'll disappear too" Steve says "but that's not going to happen" Steve says "you're not going to walk away, you're grieving. If you want space then okay, I will be three doors down but I'm not leaving you Penelope" Steve says and I let the tears fall

"Steve" I whisper "no I am not letting you do this, I'm not" Steve says and I look into his eyes "I don't want to but" I begin to say "there is no buts, you're hurting and now you want to push all of us away" Steve says grabbing my hand softly "I'm not letting you go this easily. I have never loved anyone since Peggy, I have never even given anyone a chance the way I have you. I am not letting you walk away" Steve says "I love you Steve" I whisper and walk closer to him

"I'm not like everyone else Nellie" Steve says pulling me into a hug "I know" I say "I'm just scared" I whisper, I look up at him and tiptoe to kiss him softly. I pull away for a second and kiss him more roughly, he grabs my waist pulling me closer "are you sure?" Steve says and I nod "I am" I reply and Steve picks me up, I wrap my legs around his torso as he takes as back to my room instantly laying me on the bed kissing me roughly again

We pull apart as we hear an extremely loud noise coming from outside "what the hell was that?" I ask surprised "do you think maybe?" Steve begins to say "my dad" I yell and get up running out the room and out front with Steve behind me and pepper appearing too "were you two?" She asks looks at Steve who's shirt was almost fully unbuttoned "oh um no?" I say more like a question and pepper laughs

I begin to help Steve fix up as we see a bright light carrying down a spaceship, the bright light turned out to be a woman "I'm Carol" she says "Penelope, this is Steve and Pepper" I introduce us and she nods , the ship opens to reveal a robot looking girl with my dad, Steve instantly goes over to help him "dad" I cry running to him and hugging him softly, I cup his face with my hands and stare into his eyes

"It's me, I'm real" he says with a smile, I let go "Pepper?" He asks as she steps out from behind me and hug my father too "I lost the kid" my father says "Peter is gone?" I ask and he nods, I look up at Steve "we all suffered great losses" Steve says and my father looks at me "Bucky and Victoria too" I say "Sam and Wanda" I say "we can talk about this later, let's get your father taken care of" Pepper says and I nod "okay" I say walking inside with them

I am so grateful my father is alive.