Addicted to you // Steve Rogers

Chapter 44

"You're sick" Steve says and I get up from the bathroom floor for the fourth time "Steve, I ate something bad. I am not going to miss a chance to. Okay give me a second" I say while getting down on my knees again to throw up, I brush my teeth and look up at him "like I was saying, I am not going to miss a chance to go into space and to kill the son of a bitch who stole my blood from me" I say "you're not okay, what makes you think you're healthy enough to go up there?" Steve asks and I stare at him annoyed

"I am going, and if you don't like it then suck it up Steve" I say annoyed "fine" Steve says and I smile "now go get ready and let me wash out this horrible smell" I say pushing him away making him laugh. I quickly have a shower and get changed into my suit before meeting everyone inside the ship "where's Carol?" I ask "she's flying up" Steve says pointing to the window, Carol looks over and gives me a short wave

"Who here has been to space?" Rocket asks while Nat, Steve, Rhodes and I raise out hands " you better not throw up on my ship" Rocket says glancing at me "I am not going to throw up on your ship" I say annoyed "Approaching jump in 3... 2... 1!" Nebula says, all of us who have not been to space hold right onto our seats obviously terrified. I look out the window proudly to be in space "and you thought you were just going to keep me from this because of a little food poisoning" I say smirking while looking at Steve

"It's going to work Steve" Natasha says "it will" I reassure him too "I know it will" he says glancing over at me "because I don't know what I would do if it doesn't" Steve says. I feel the ship landing "I think you should say, you're looking a little pale" Steve says "Steve we are not having this same conversation again, I told you" I say while taking off my seatbelt and stand up "I am going" I say feeling this "listen I get it okay, you're strong and you're powerful and you don't want to believe that you are indeed sick" Steve says "but please for my own sake. You are my weakness and I am worried, stay in the ship" Steve says and I glance at Natasha who nods in agreement

"Damn it, fine" I say sitting back down, Steve places a soft kiss on my kiss and is the last to walk out. I sit around bored and annoyed just waiting

Everyone comes back in silent, Thor's axe is stained with blood "did you do it?" I ask "Thor went for the head" Natasha says and I smile "you killed. Why aren't you happier than this?" I ask frowning "he messed it up" Rhodes says "he used the stones two days ago" I say "he destroyed the stones with the stones" Natasha says "can you guy just let it out" I say raising my voice

"The stones are gone Nellie, we can't bring them back" Steve says and my eyes fill with tears as I look into Steve's, I can see the pain in his eyes, I can see the hope fading out "there's no way" I ask trying to hold my own tears back "no" Steve says and I nod slowly. I put my seatbelt back on but remain silent

When we get back to earth I head to my room, changing into sweats and a hoodie just to hide under the covers once more "Nellie" I hear Steve say but I don't move "I know you don't want to talk and you really don't have to. But I'm here" Steve says. I feel his side of the bed deepen as he lays down beside me "I'll always be here with you no matter what" Steve says, I turn around slowly and take my head out of the covers

I look into his beautiful blue eyes and instantly feel comfort "it hurts that I can't get them back. B-but I should be grateful, I didn't lose it all" I whisper "I still have you, I have the avengers. The ones I've known since I started my journey here" I whisper "I have my father and Pepper, I should be more grateful" I whisper, I feel Steve wrap his arms around me and pull him onto him "you lost a lot, we all have and it's okay to grieve" Steve says and I nod with a sigh "do you think maybe we should move out of here?" I ask

"Move out?" Steve asks "I know everyone will follow their own way now, I doubt everyone will remain um here" I say "what were you thinking?" Steve asks I can hear the smile in his voice even though I'm not looking "I was thinking maybe a lake house, close to the water. Close to my father too, a reasonable distance from here, knowing Nat she won't want to leave she loves it here" I say "maybe we should stay with her" Steve suggest

"Or we should build a house" I say getting up from the bed and looking out the window at the huge space around us "we have enough space for a nice place right there" I say pointing at a further corner "we do" Steve says spinning me around "maybe we should" he says and I smile "yeah, i think we should" I whisper as he leans down to place a soft kiss on my lips.