'Partners forever' // An Upstead Story 🤍

Chapter 46: Healing

⚠️ Serious TW - anything that is in this story should no be used in real life!! This could end in serious injury!! It is all fake!! The situation and the way it is handled is completely fake. It would never happen in real life it's just how I wanted it to go. ⚠️

*Now someone of you guys may not think that this is what should happen in this chapter, but I feel that it is very important to put across. It's all about healing and from personal experience it can be hard. I just want to shows you that this isn't always a good choice to make. I hope that no one takes this personally. And please before you hate on me just take in what this has to say. Xx*

Jays POV
I get home after another day of dead ends on Faith's case. I walk into the kitchen and I see Trudy standing there with a cup of coffee in her hand. I take my jacket off and walk over to her. "Hey Trudy, thank you so much for checking on her" I say as I stand across the island from her. "No problem, she's upstairs sleeping now" she says quietly "Wait she sleeping?" I ask in shock as I look up at her "Yeah after she calmed down I put her straight to bed." She says as she slowly passes me a cup off coffee. "Thank god for that, she hasn't slept properly in like over 72 hours" I say as I look at the clock. "Jay....she's not okay" she says quietly. "I know I have booked her an appointment with a therapist maybe it will help." I sat as I look up at her.

"I really don't think she is ever going to recover from this" Trudy says truthfully. "I know, she won't talk to me. I don't know how to help her" I say. "She looks so lost and scared but then also like she has given up" she says. "I have never seen her this broken before" I say as I rub my hands through my hair "but I am going to do whatever I can to help her" I say. She nods at me and gives me a faint smile.

After Trudy left I washed the left over dishes in the sink then I quietly crept upstairs and looked into our bedroom. Hailey was laying on her stomach wrapped in our covers sound asleep, barely even making a sound. I leaned against the door frame and just stood there watching her. Watching her silently breath. I can't lose this girl, I need her in my life. I could feel myself well up at the thought of her being broken and struggling to live, is it selfish that even if she was struggling I need her to stay for me? I know that is wrong but she is like my oxygen without her I would suffocate. I couldn't survive without her but the thought of her being in pain is killing me.

5 hours later

I wake up in the middle of the night to the sounds of her whimpering. I rub my eyes and I look to my left to see Hailey crying, I didn't know if she was awake at first until I hear her say "It should've been me" "It should've- , I'm s- I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" she cries. Her cries alone are too heartbreaking and difficult to listen to but having her cry in pain is even worse. "Hailey...." I whisper as I carefully place my hand on her cheek. "Hailey, wake up." I say again and this time her eyes jolt open. "Hey Shhh, it's okay it was just a dream" I say as I pull her into my arms but she fights me. "No Jay" she cries. "I need her back, Please bring her back. Do something to get her back" she cries "Baby you know I would if could, but I can't" I whisper as I hug her tighter in my arms.

She just lays there crying for about 2 hours in my arms, I even cried a bit too when she was sobbing, it brings me so much pain that she is like this and I wish that I can take it but I can't. She lost someone who she loves so much and the worst part is that she blames herself for it. I know that kind of quilt and it's a horrible thing the have to carry. She just lay in my arms sobbing her heart out begging me to stop the pain and that's all I wanted to do, but I couldn't. There was physically nothing I could do to help except hold her and be there for her.