Fluffy SKZ oneshots🧸

Because I like you🧸

Ship: Changlix

Requested by: NoemiSTAY

Please listen to "Because I like you" by Changbin and Felix

Felix' POV.:
People often call me sunshine because of my bright smile and the positive attitude I always try to keep. Lately though, my life hadn't been all that sunny. It had been quite dark and rainy for about the past three weeks. Three weeks ago, my boyfriend Changbin had broken up with me, leaving me confused and hurting. Until that fateful day, I was convinced that he loved me just as much as I loved him and that he was happy. That was also why the breakup had come as a huge surprise for me. Had we been fighting a lot or had there been a strain on our relationship, us growing distant, or literally anything, I would have expected it but the way it happened out of the blue shocked me deeply. The day before we had gone to an arcade where Changbin had won me a large teddy bear. He had looked so happy and proud.

The next day, he had sat me down. Telling me that whatever had been there between us, he didn't feel it anymore but he hoped that we could stay friends, otherwise our work would suffer. Changbin always hated to hurt people with his words, that's probably why he gave me so little warning beforehand. Now I was pretty sure that he had been faking his happiness for quite a while before breaking things off with me because he wanted to cause me as little pain as possible. That caring personality was exactly what I had fallen for ever since we started to train together, though I could barely understand his words back then. I wanted to be mad at him but I really couldn't. Of course, I still loved him and he had always made me happy. I wanted to make Changbin as happy as he made me but seeing I failed, it was only right he broke it off and I truly hoped he'd find happiness with somebody else. As much as I was hurting right now, all I wanted was for him to be happy, even if it wasn't with me.

The same day of the breakup, we had moved rooms. Basically, I had changed rooms with Jisung and was now sharing a room with Jeongin, while 3racha had their room. It was pretty convenient considering the trio often stayed at the studio late into the night. The main advantage for me was that I had my privacy and a space to go to when I couldn't handle being around my ex. This way, Changbin also couldn't hear me cry myself to sleep every night. Jeongin did though. Most of the nights, he'd come over to my bed and cuddle me to sleep because I couldn't calm down, feeling like I wouldn't be able to breathe again in my life. Part of me felt guilty for burdening my youngest dongsaeng like this but there was barely anything I could do about it. My bed started to get pretty packed, with the stuffed bear Changbin had won for me, the maknae and me but I wouldn't have it any other way. I'd feel even more empty if there was nothing around me when I slept. Though the bear was a poor excuse of a cuddle buddy and didn't even get close to as comfortable as my ex, it was the last thing I had from Changbin.

There was one thing that irked me a bit. Ever since our breakup, Changbin had been avoiding the dorm as much as he could. It wasn't like I wasn't grateful for not having to see him, it would probably hurt more if I had to face him aside from our official schedule but I couldn't help but feel like I was the reason he avoided coming home. Changbin staying at the studio late often times resulted in Chan and Jisung staying at the studio late too, which was really a hard hit for me. They were the two members I had always felt like I could lean on the most when times got hard but where were they now? With Changbin! I wasn't sure whether betrayal was the right word to describe what I felt but feeling them drift away from me caused a different type of pain. My Aussie brother promised I could always find him but where was he when I couldn't breathe and darkness surrounded me? He was the one who understood me best, so how couldn't he see how much I needed him right now? My twin who was always there to lighten the mood, he wasn't there to light mine anymore. I hoped he at least makes Changbin happy, though it didn't feel like I could feel happy again.