I Broke Her

25

Dannon

Just waiting for bridie to come out, I sat down on her bed. I want to know how her session went and how she is feeling. I know it's been a big twenty four hours for her with all the men around but I'm proud of her for sitting down and talking with maddox.
"If you turn the laptop on, I can show you the tattoos" I looked at Bridie "troy sent them to you via email?" "Yes and he done an amazing job. They are exactly what I want" I grinned "alright".
Grabbing her laptop, I turned it on. Waiting for it to load, I kept my eyes on Bridie as she got herself dressed.
"Beautiful as ever" Bridie looked at me. her eyes had softened like they used to every time I complimented her.
"Has the laptop loaded?" "I was not paying attention to the laptop" "I know. I'm going to brush my hair" "you should leave it up".
Bridie walked to the bathroom while I opened her emails. lucky she hadn't logged out. Opening the first attached image, I couldn't help but grin. The images was definitely Bridie. It had two detailed arrows pointing in opposite directions, one down and one up. The centre where they would cross had five lillie's. On one side it says 'keep' and on the other side it says 'going'.
"You like it?" "I do, its perfect for you". Bridie moved to sit beside me while I opened the second image.
There was a dark purple butterfly. where the wings met, it had faded to light And it was resting on a light pink lily.
"Lillie's have always been your favorite" "you remember" closing the laptop I gave my attention to Bridie.
"I remember everything about you Bridie" she nodded with a soft smile on her face.
"How are you feeling?" "I'm alright" "you didn't eat, I will go get you something" "no that's okay, I can do it" "I want you to rest" Bridie nodded "I know but I also think I should go down stairs".
"What did you discuss with John today?" "The last two days" "everything?" "No we discussed all the people that were around and how I was feeling" "I know it wasn't easy for you" "no but John said not to block out how I am feeling" "but it helps you" "no if I block it out, it'll only stay around" I nodded "well let's work on that. Let's go get some food" "have you ate?" "Yes I have" "then I will go" "no" standing up, I held my hand out for bridie.

"Bridie" "hi callan" "are you feeling alright?" "Yes thank you I am just coming to have some food" "angelic has gone out but I believe she left some in the oven for you" Bridie tensed for a moment before relaxing again "thank you".

Bridie moved to the kitchen while I stayed put. I can't be with her every step and no one is here besides callan. I know why she tensed up but I'm glad she relaxed again.

"I'm going to go sit in the dining room" "I'll join you" Bridie nodded then walked out.
"Did her session go alright?" "I believe so, they spoke about the last two days" callan nodded "she is making progress so that's good" "yeah".

"When do you want to get those tattoos done?" "I don't know, I have to speak with Troy to see when he is available to do it" "how about we do that when we go back up stairs" Bridie nodded "we can do that".
"You are getting a tattoo?" I looked behind me to see callan standing near the wall "yes I am" "why?" "To cover the scars" "it'll make you more comfortable?" "I hope so" callan nodded at Bridie "that's great Bridie".

"I'm going to go get some sleep" "I will take this for you and I will meet you up there" "no it's.." "please just let me do it" Bridie nodded "thank you".
Taking her dishes to the kitchen, I rinsed them then put them in the dishwasher before heading up stairs.
Opening bridies door she was laying on the bed on her stomach. Walking in, i then closed the door and removed my shoes then laid down beside bridie running my hand up and down her back. Slightly raising her shirt a few light scars that you wouldn't notice unless up close sat on her lower back. Sitting up I raised her shirt "dannon" not saying a word I looked at her back running my hands over them. How did she get these? "How Bridie?, How did you get these light scars?" "From the gravel". The gravel? I swallowed the lump that was sitting in my throat. She got these when I dropped her out of the boot and dragging her to the warehouse. Planting gentle kisses on every single one of them. "Dannon" the way she said my name I knew what she was going to say "are there anymore?" Bridie just laid there not saying a word which means there is. I need to find them I need to see them to see the damage I did to her.
"Dannon come lay down" "I need to see them Bridie" "not now" Bridie rolled over grabbing my hand "come lay down" making eye contact with her I nodded "alright".
Laying down beside her, I pulled her close continuing to look into her beautiful eyes.
"Did you need stitches for any of those?" "No I didn't they healed on their own" tracing the edge of hair I nodded "I'm really sorry Bridie for everything" "I know dannon you do not need to apologise anymore" "I will apologise as much as I can I mean every single word" Bridie had a soft smile on her face "I know you do, I can tell by the tone of your voice, the look in your eyes and your demeanor. I may have been away for six years but your expressions have never changed like right now the way you look at me I can see you are sorry for hurting me but not only that I can see the love in your eyes" I grinned "I will always love you Bridie. My life with you was always empty, I always thought of you. I still have all our photos although I took them off display" Bridie nodded "I'm surprised you kept them" "I couldn't let them go, like I never want to let you go. I made a huge mistake but if you will let me I plan to make up for everything, every moment I can, in every way" seeing a soft smile on Bridies face she then closed her eyes before opening them again. Pressing my lips on hers she responded straight away. This kiss was slow and gentle. I don't care how I kiss her, every kiss has meaning. I want to take everything slow with her savour every moment.
"I should get some sleep" I nodded. pulling her closer, I wrapped my arm over her, her head resting just under my chin.
I can't be any more grateful for this. After everything I did, everything she has been through, she is still letting me hold her, kiss her, make love to her and be beside her. I plan to find every single scar I caused her. to show her how sorry I am. to show her how beautiful she still is to me. She may not believe it right now but I will instill it in her mind. I want her to be the confident woman she used to be. The one that was always so caring, so sweet but had a fire in her. The one who didn't fear anyone or back away from any situation. Who didn't feel trapped being around the family. That reminds me, I will need to give her maddox's number.  if she can continue to speak with him, I think it would be great for her.
"I can feel your eyes on me dannon" "I'm just admiring the beautiful woman in my arms" "you are not tired?" "No but I want to be here with you. I don't care if you sleep as long as you are near and I'm in your company" "you do not.." "do not tell me I do not need to do it. I want to do it Bridie, that's what you need to understand. I do what I want to do and all I want to do is be with you whether you be asleep or awake. I know having the session today has tired you out mentally. Just let me hold you and get some sleep" "okay" I grinned then kissed the top of her head "sleep well" "I'll try" just laying in silence for about ten minutes Bridies breathing had changed and I knew she was asleep. Closing my eyes, I just took it all in.