I Broke Her

13

Dannon

Running my thumb back and forth over the scar on her lower stomach the tears flowed down my cheeks. I couldn't produce any words to say how sorry I am.
"Dannon" looking into bridies bright blue eyes she spoke again "this is not helping you" how can she care how I am feeling, when I am the one that did this to her?.
"I don't care. I took something from you, I deserve to feel this way" running the back of my hand up over her soft skin to her chest I tore my eyes away from hers to look at the scars on her chest as I traced them with my thumb. "You have the biggest heart I know Bridie. I know what I said out of anger but I didn't mean it" "I know dannon" swallowing the lump in my throat, I continued tracing my thumb over the large cross that sat in her skin, her gorgeous light skin. Looking into her eyes again, I could see them start to water. "Don't cry bridie" she put her head down instantly. Cupping her chin gently I raised her head so I can look into her eyes. Slowly running the back of my fingers to the side of her face, I pushed her blonde hair behind her ear and traced the scar down her face "even with this scar you are the most beautiful woman in the world" "dannon please" "I will never forgive myself for what I have done to you Bridie but I do hope you will let me love you again. I have never stopped loving you, thinking about you. Even when I thought you had hurt my mother, I still couldn't stop. You are the woman I have always loved and always will. Knowing the truth, its killing me inside knowing what I did to you. what you have been through. seeing you jump at every little thing all because of me. I want to be there for you, to help you, to help you get back to the mentally and physically strong woman you used to be. Please let me do that. Please let me love you and don't push me away" Bridie only closed her eyes and went to put her head down but I held it up. taking the chance, I moved in connecting my lips with her soft pink lips. To my surprise she responded by parting her lips. Kissing her after six years, I never want to stop. I don't know if it is just a weak moment or not. When Bridie pulled away, I felt at a loss. The woman I love kissed me back that's a start.
Seeing her eyes open and look into mine a lone tear travelled down her cheek, Im not sure what to make of it.
Running my thumb across he cheek, I wiped the tear away "I have missed you so much" bridie nodded "I need to ahh to get dressed" "leave it, you are beautiful bridie" "we need to go down stairs" she's right, angelic would have dinner ready. I nodded and stepped back. Seeing Bridie put her shirt back on, she then walked to the bathroom and came back out again. "You do not need to cover that scar" "I do for myself" I nodded.
"Are you ready to head out?" "Yes" opening the door, I walked out and Bridie followed.

"I was just coming to get you two" "sorry we needed to talk" "that's great. Come on dinner is ready" "thankyou".
Walking into the dining room, I took a seat at the table and Bridie took the seat she sat in earlier. I wish she had sat closer but one step at a time.
"What time is psychologist coming tomorrow?" "Not until midday" angelic nodded then looked at Bridie "Bridie would you like to go to your house in the morning?" "If it's not too much trouble" "no trouble at all" "is everything okay?" Bridie nodded "yes, she needs to go get more clothes so I will take her to her house" "I can drive" "don't be silly Bridie, it will be good to get out of the house anyway" I wouldn't want her going on her own, I don't know if she would come back. I'd offer to take her myself but I don't know how she would feel about that.
"While we are out, maybe you can start on the wood" "where do you want it?" "In a pile away from the building so we can burn it" "sounds good to me" "I knew it would".
"Have you heard from any of your men?" "No but I will give apollo a call after dinner to check up on things" "probably a good idea".
Eating the rest of my meal in silence I waited until everyone stood up.
"Would you like a hand?" "No you go make that phone call, I will be fine" "alright".

"Dannon how is everything?" "Getting there slowly. Everything running smoothly in san diego?" "Yes all is good here. Did you organise that psychologist?" "Yes he is coming tomorrow" "you seem a little off" "just dealing with a few things. I will be alright" "if you need to talk, you know I am here" "I appreciate it apollo. I just need to wrap my head around it before I can speak about it" "alright. Let me know how tomorrow goes" "if she tells me" "not talking to you?" "in very small doses" "it's a start" "yeah. I will chat to you later on" "no worries, if you need anything just call" "thanks" "cya" "bye". Hanging up the phone, I put it in my pocket then leant on the railing looking out over the property. Seeing Bridie walking across the grass towards the pond, I smiled. Every time we used to come here, she would always go look at the pond. Deciding to join her, I headed down stairs then out the back. Getting closer to her, I thought it would best to speak before approaching her. I didnt want to startle her too much.
"Bridie" "hi" "can I join you?" "If you would like to" walking towards the chair, I then sat down beside her.
"You always loved coming to the pond when we came to visit angelic and callan" "yes it's beautiful and calming. They have a beautiful home, this pond just adds to the beauty" "what do you find comfortable about it?" "Just looking at the water while hearing the birds" "angelic mentioned you don't think you can come back to san Diego" "that place has a lot of memories" "do the good out weigh the bad?" "Yes but I struggle to deal with just the memory of seeing your mother on the floor bleeding and unconscious. I don't know how I will handle walking back into that place or the warehouse" "what about the good memories what stands out to you the most?" "There are many of times with your men and with just you alone. My favorite day wasn't at the house though" "when was it?" "When we went to the river. Every time we went there it was full of laughs and fun" I grinned thinking about the photo in the album. "I still have the photo of you and I at the river. The one where you had a massive smile on your face and I was poking your cheek" I could see a grin on Bridies face. I love when she smiles. "I remember that day. Maddox had the boat and we were on the tubes. Although I flipped out of them a few times it was quite fun. We had a bbq by the water and we were all covered in sand by the time we left as a small whirlwind came through" "that's the one. Maybe one day if you feel comfortable enough we can go back there" Bridie nodded "it's hard dannon, I have been on my own for six years in fear of my life" "I know and I am sorry. I spoke to your mother" Bridie looked at me "my mother?" I nodded "yes, when Apollo had seen you, I contacted her. You have not seen her since.. six years ago" "no I couldn't" "you were afraid" Bridie nodded "I didn't want them getting hurt" "maybe you should call them" "when i am in the right frame of mind. I don't even know what to say to them" "the truth" "no" "Bridie you do not need to protect me" "I'm protecting them. Can you imagine how they would be if I told them the truth?" she's right "you are right but what will you say" "I don't know" sitting there in silence Bridie kept her eyes on the pond while mine never left her.
"I should really get some sleep. I can already see its going to be an emotional day" "do you want me there?" "I need to do this on my own" "I understand that. Let's head back to the house so you can get some rest" "okay".