I Broke Her

30

Dannon

I needed to see how he got her down the stairs and how he is going to get her back up with out her running.
Seeing her stop at the entrance of the foyer, maddox walked in front of her then walked back wards.
"Concentrate on my eyes" I don't know what he did but she let a small laugh slip "uncross them you weirdo" he's an idiot but if it made her laugh and continue to walk then I don't care. "you are going to have to start paying me" "for?" "I believe I'm your tour guide" "is there a place in your eyes I'm supposed to travel to?" "Space" "no brains back there maddox?" he laughed as I held mine in. I didn't want her to lose concentration "that is not what I meant".
"let me see you one two step" "Rock it, don't stop it" what the hell? I just shook my head with a grin.
"Everybody get on the floor" "Crank the party up" "we just did, welcome to the top floor". Seeing Bridie put her head down she raised it again.
"Thanks tour guide" "you are more than welcome, I will see you soon okay" Bridie nodded then turned to walk away. I couldn't help but smile when she looked my way before walking off.
"Is that what you did to get her down stairs?" "I just got her to talk and keep her eyes on mine so she didn't look around. I needed to change it up a bit, keep her mind off that part of the house" I grinned "let's hope it works" "I will keep doing it with her. My voice is different to yours" I understood what he was saying. with my voice in the foyer, it could trigger her but I also want to try. We can't rely on maddox to do it all the time.
"I'm going to head off, I will see you tomorrow" "thanks maddox I will see you then".
Locking the front door, I headed up stairs. Walking into the room bridie was sitting on the bed with the photo album.
"Bridie" when she looked up I walked towards her "I'm just looking at photos" "which one caught your eye?" "the one of your mother and us two at apollos wedding" "she loved you like her own daughter" "I know she did, like I loved her she was always a sweet woman" "yes until you crossed her" "we are all that way" "that I can't argue with" Bridie grinned then grabbed the album. "Are these all the photos?" "Yes thats all of them" Bridie nodded and opened the album again. Putting the photo back she slowly flicked through the album. I wasn't sure what was on her mind. Seeing her stop, I wasn't sure which photo caught her eye but she just looked at the page. Trying to figure out which one, I looked at the four of them until she flipped the page. "What was on that page that caught your eye?" "Ahh nothing" "please do not lie to me Bridie" she shook her head "I think it's best I don't say anything dannon" "which photo were you looking at?" Bridie went back a page "just this day" that was only two weeks before I hurt her "what was it about that day?" Bridie sat silent "Bridie" when she walked to the bathroom I followed. she was searching through the cupboard then stopped. "Bridie?" "This" Bridie stood up then turned to face me a tear running down her cheek. Looking at her hands then back to her eyes then back to her hands a test sat in her palms. "You.. you were pregnant?" Bridie nodded then put her head down "I... I found out that day. I planned to tell you.. I had told your mom the day before everything happened to brighten her day but then.. I didn't even get the chance. Now I.. I will never get the chance" Bridie threw the test at the wall. Pulling her close, I held her tight.
Not only did I hurt her and take away her chance in the future, she was already pregnant. I killed our baby. Hearing that fucking destroyed me. The tattoo with the butterfly resting on a flower wasn't just because she can't have kids. it's our baby resting. I shook my head as the tears streamed down my face. We need to move to lay down. Leaving one hand behind her back, I put the other behind her legs then walked to the bedroom laying her on the bed but never let go only laid beside her and held her tight.

Waking up still holding Bridie, i kissed the top of her head. it fucking hurts knowing what I have done to this beautiful woman. I need to release some steam before i lose control. Slowly moving off the bed, i made sure Bridie was still asleep before getting changed and leaving the room.
"Good morning sir" "morning. the room is still occupied" "I will not touch it sir" I nodded as I walked down stairs.
"Your guest is already here" "thanks".
Walking into the kitchen, maddox was making a coffee.
"You look like shit" "yeah, rough night" "want to talk about it?" "I need to let off some steam" "that cant be good, have some food and we'll head out to the garage" "I'm not hungry but I will have a coffee" maddox nodded "why are you here so early?" "Just incase I'm needed but I see you might need the company first" "I don't know what I need maddox".

Heading out to the garage, maddox joined me. "What happened?" "What hasn't happened?" "Talk to me what ever you say in here stays here" I know maddox wouldnt say anything to anyone anyway.
"You know what I did" "that day?" "Yes" "well I lied" "about?" "I didn't leave her on the side of the road, I couldn't. I took her to the hospital. I didn't know if she would survive but I couldn't kill her" "you have always loved her dannon. that's not a bad thing" I nodded "when apollo found her in los Angeles relief swept through me but knowing she was In fear of me killed me inside. seeing her fearful of everything destroyed me" "shes making progress" "she was until I brought her here" "she is still making progress dannon. yes at this stage she needs a distraction to enter the foyer but with time that will change".
"what happened last night?" I shook my head as I hit the punching bag a few times.
"Dannon" "not only did I scar her, I took away the chance of her having kids. She was fucking innocent maddox and it kills me" maddox nodded "I know she told me" "oh that's not all" maddox looked at me "that is everything all in one" "no. She was looking at photos last night and stopped on a page of photos that we took two weeks before the day I destroyed her" "what are you getting at dannon?" "I asked her what caught her eye about those photos and she wouldnt answer me until she went to the bathroom scavenging through the cupboard. She pulled out a fucking pregnancy test that she had taken the same day those photos were taken. She was going to tell me, she had already told my mother but the day she planned to tell me she didn't get a chance. She was fucking pregnant and I killed our baby. That's why she got the resting butterfly. It wasn't just because she couldn't have kids, it's a symbol for the one she lost" maddox stepped forward but I put my hand up "don't, I don't want the fucking pity" "I'm not going to pity you dannon. I'm here to listen to you and comfort you. You are family. Yes you made a mistake but that woman up there still loves you. Treasure what you have don't get angry at the past, concentrate on the future like you have wanted her to do" I nodded "Its just killing me maddox and hearing that topped it off" "what you need to do is.."
Hearing a knock on the garage door, we stopped.
"Yes?" "Ahh sir, ma'am looks to be in a state of shock" I looked at maddox "the foyer" I nodded "thanks".
Walking out and back inside, Bridie was like a statue at the top of the stairs looking at the ground.
Maddox ran straight up the top of the stairs in front her.
"Bridie look at me and keep your eyes on mine" seeing her eyes go to him, I just hoped he could get her down.
"Hold the rail" Bridie did as he told her to do.
"What are the colours of the flowers on your tattoo?" "Blue, purple, yellow and pink" seeing her walk down the stairs keeping her eyes on maddoxs, I grinned "dark or light?" "They are all light" "why?" "I prefer the light colours over the dark" "and the arrows?" "They are black" "why black?" "The black makes the lilies stand out" "and the words?" "They are black" "why?" "So the words stand out against the flowers" without Bridie realising it, maddox had got her to the dining room.
"Just like you do" "I don't stand out" "in this family you do and in this dining room" maddox turned looking at the table and Bridie did the same with a grin.