I Broke Her

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Bridie

Stepping into the shower, dannon wrapped his arms around me from behind "we used to do this all the time" I smiled "we did, our excuse was we're saving water but the shower was never short" "it was never long enough" dannon placed a kiss on my shoulder then turned me around his hand sitting on my face as he looked into my eyes. "No time with you is long enough. I missed out on so many years having you with me, seeing your beautiful eyes look into mine, your beautiful smile as you look my way, feeling your hand in mine, hearing you laugh And even cry with happiness. Moments like this and making love to you. I never want to miss out on any of that" dannon pressed his lips on mine as his hands moved to my lower back. He made me feel incredible last night. the way he touched me, kissed me and made love to me. Just having his hands on me now, so gently, I felt calm. Dannon pulling away from the kiss, he looked me straight in the eyes "I meant everything I said last night Bridie, I promise" "I know dannon, I know when you are sincere" he had a gentle smile on his face. "Can I?" He held up the body sponge and I nodded. Dannon washing my body from head to toe ever so gently, he then put the sponge back on the holder then rinsed my body off. "Let me?" "No I want to concentrate on you" "you can" grabbing the sponge I rinsed it off then started on his neck slowly working my way down his body. Noticing a scar on his back I stopped "how did you get this?" "I got into a scuffle a couple of months after I had seen you last" "you were stabbed?" "Yes but the other guy was worse off" continuing to wash his body, i moved around in front of him starting at his feet moving all the way up to his shoulders again his eyes staring Into mine, I couldn't look away. Going to grab the shower head, he ran his hand up my side. Getting the shower head, I rinsed his body then put it back on the holder.
"We all done. We should.." dannon pressed his lips on mine as his hands moved to my lower back then to my butt lifting me up like I weighed nothing. Putting my arms over his shoulders and my legs around his waist, he gently pushed me against the wall. Kissing me with more heat, he removed his hand from my side. Feeling his penis at my vaginal Opening, i worked with him lowering myself as he pushed up. Breaking from the kiss his mouth moved to my neck as we moved in sync. I have missed him and I have missed the way he makes me feel in the bedroom. He makes me feel incredible. Feeling the pleasure run through my body, I let out a light moan through the kiss as I let my orgasm take over, dannon not far behind releasing his load as he let out a groan while grazing his teeth over my shoulder before kissing it.
None of us needing to say anything, he looked me in the eyes then kissed me again this time with more passion before I dropped my legs down.
Both of us cleaning our selves up again we got out.
"Would you like to go get some breakfast?" "Yes I could eat" "me too". Both of us getting dressed, I quickly brushed my towel dried hair then walked back into the room.
"Ready?" "When you are" I nodded.
Walking down stairs, I could hear so many voices. I didn't know how to feel about it. Dannon must have sensed how I was feeling and grabbed my hand. "Just block out the thoughts Bridie, no one will touch you. if they do they have to get through me" i know but yet the fear took over my body.
Walking to the kitchen, all eyes moved to us and I stopped and whispered so no one else could hear "dannon I.." "it's okay" I shook my head "I..I can't do this" "look at me" facing dannon, I looked into his eyes "you can do this, no one is going to hurt you, nothing is going to happen" feeling a presence behind me, I broke eye contact and turned then stepped back seeing gabriel and miles "Bridie" I shook my head then ran straight out the back.

"Bridie stop" "I can't do this dannon, I'm not ready" "okay. just stop please" stopping just short of the end of the patio, I couldn't face him.
Hearing his steps across the patio towards me, I had this urge to run but fought against it. Dannon moved around in front of me putting his hand to my chin raising my head. "it's alright, I won't make you go back in there" I nodded "I can't do it dannon, I'm.." dannon wrapped his arms around me. I hate this fear that runs through me, feeling like I am trapped. "Nothing is going to happen okay" "I'd like to just be normal" "you are with a past but we will work through it together, one step at a time" I nodded "I will go get you some food, where do you want to sit?" "I will go to the pond but I will wait up here until you bring some out" "I'd like to join you" "you should spend some time with them" "no Bridie" "yes, I know you don't want to go back to san diego until I am ready. you should spend some time with them" dannon just went silent but held me tight. "I will go get some breakfast" "okay thankyou".

Dannon left to go get breakfast while I looked out over the railing at the property. I need to get better I need to stop this.
"Bridie" instantly turning, I looked at maddox. He had his hands up like he was showing me he isn't going to hurt me. "You can lower your hands maddox" "I just wanted you to know I am not going to hurt you" I nodded "are you feeling okay?" "I don't know how to answer that" "you are a mess mentally?" I nodded "the fear just takes over and with so many people around not only does the fear run through me, I feel trapped" "I can understand that" "how have you been maddox?" He had a smile on this face "the same as I used to be bridie. I am always well" "I'm glad to hear that and I'm sorry about before" "you do not need to apologise Bridie, we all understand it's not easy for you but we are family. we have always been family and none of us will ever hurt you" "I was already.." "I know but you are making progress with him" I nodded "the love outweighs the hate. it always has" maddox had a gentle smile on his face.
"Would you like to come sit down?" "Not inside" "no just us, out here" I nodded.
Both of us taking a seat, maddox sat opposite me.
"Did john help?" "He asked a lot of questions" "that's what he does, he needs to get to the bottom of the problem to help you work through it. How were you after the session?" "Drained. It was the first time I have spoke about it" "how did you handle it?" "I was a blabbering mess, I don't even know if he understood everything I said" "and things with you and dannon?" "We are working on it. there's always this doubt in the back of my mind. The guy I love is the one that did this to me and yet.." "you can't hate him" I shook my head "no I can't, I don't want to" "I know and I also know it's hurting him seeing you this way" "I know but I can't help it" "he knows that too. Everything is going to take time Bridie. you can't expect it to change over night" "I really wish it would. I'm going to get the scars on my body covered with tattoos but I don't think I will ever be able to look in the mirror" "can I see the scar?" Moving the hair away from the side of my face maddox looked at it showing no emotion "don't be ashamed of it Bridie, you are a strong woman" "I don't feel it, I feel like a mess" maddox got out of his seat slowly moving closer never taking his eyes off of me. "Can I?" I wasn't sure what he meant but I nodded. Maddox knelt down in front of me. "You may not feel like it Bridie but you are. You are also family, so if you ever need to talk or just need anything at all let one of us know and we'll be there for you. Speak to dannon about the way you feel. he has always been there for you and nothing will change that. Yes he made a mistake, one that cost you your freedom as such and him his sanity but you two make each other, you are stronger together" I nodded not sure what to say "just try do that okay and block those thoughts out. Don't let them get to you" "I'm trying" "we know" "thank you maddox" "you are welcome" "can I...?" "Anything" wrapping my arms around maddox, he returned the hug "I'm sorry" "you have nothing to be sorry for just get better" I nodded.